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Toy list:

2010-07-07T13:01:00.002+08:00

wii
a bigger flat screen tv / monitor
upgrade desktop
new phone? (old one getting temperamental)
send my laptop to repair
data migration from old hdd to new hdd

hm, looks like that's all the tech stuff that i want / to do at the moment. need to work hard to get munny to buy toys...

Lovely new year!

2009-01-30T13:16:00.002+08:00

This chinese new year is the first out of my many years overseas that feels more like a proper new year. Since the time that i moved to singapore, I did not go 拜年 except that once at yinyue's place during JC.

There were many "first time" during this new year =)

The day when i tagged along with his mom to go for gorcery shopping for the first time, it was also the first time i went over to his uncle's house and visited his 94 year's old ah ma. She is really healthy and strong at her age! But there are some communication barrier coz she can only speak hokken and i would not really understand much with my limited vocabs... I can totally understand how he felt when i talk to my mom. lol.... all canto, BUT he is learning fast and can understand most of the time when i am not speaking like bullet train. I like his ah ma coz she is always smiling when she see me and she is v friendly. And she told me to come again next time for more visits =) love it. oh... and she told me to learn hokken too =.= so is my mom hahaha. mom said it's useful if i am going to stay on in sg. Guess i should buck up in learning more hokken - dear u better teach me well. lol.

I was also invited to a reunion dinner at dear's place first time =). His mom keep reminding me every now and them for the steamboat dinner =) it was good! and I enjoyed the dinner and it was fun watching movies with his family. First time after we have been together for 3year+ yea. oh but too bad that he was yet to be invited to mine... hm... actually mine is nth special. It's just that every year dad will come over and we eat dishes that are cny related... mom's cooking, with more expensive ingrediants and longer cooking time. lol. but i love my mom's cooking! no one can cook like she does! Hm... I sorta told him to come if he dun mind. lol. for chu yi... lol. but i think OTOT ba. =p

ohoh! and it was also the first new year in singapore that i get that many ang baos! most from his family (ah ma, mom and sis) =D It has been long since i got angbaos directly from the person - every year i get my share from relatives in hk via "papa's shipment" lol. ya lah he collected then bring over for me and larry. It still feel good to recieve ang baos even tho i din go bai nian. lol. and it just get better if u can actually visit the family. I hope we could have class tuan bai next year, where we go our classmates house to bai nian with the class. That will be so much more fun!

chu yi poor dog, no one pei him, so i went out to walk the dog and dine with him at mos. We wore pink!!! lol. so cny.

chu er, when i woke i was rushing to finsihing watching 赤壁 (Red Cliff), so that i can chase for the 下集. Suay ar, i din see dear's sms that he was ready since 1300, then i only started watching around that time also. by the time i finsihed it was 4pm. We hoped to catch the 7pm show at vivo. But by the time we went down, dear was already in the quene for 25mins and he said Red cliff sure no good seats when its our turn. And yea not only no good seats, but left only 1 seats at 7pm slot and we are not considering the 10pm one coz its just way too late! so i suggested Inkheart at 9pm. Then the guy told us it end around 11pm, i was not sure if to take it or not, well in the end we did. So meanwhile we went for Carl's jr dinner... his feel like eating. I was fine... coz food court all closed and i had subway too often when i was overseas. Other fastfood are just not gd enough. Slow food cost too much. Kim Gary is not exactly good for hker's taste buds. And there are no cheap jap food around. lol. Dinner was funny with stupid faces, both his and mine. and he keep taking my bacons! The avocado burger was not as nice as the mushroom burger that he has... the beef chilli cheese fries was good though. i think better than superdog's one. overall, carl's is more value for money compare to superdog, really.

Inkheart was OK only if u asked me. Tho there are some breathe-taking scene (if u are as kiddo as me), but overall its draggy and lack the central hero role which will take the story to tis height. Some plots were abit cliche and predictable, which will kill those like me who would then be unimpressed by half of its tricks. The effects were good, and sometime was funny. But really, i think the story lack an aim and the plot is like here-and-there. I feel somewad "suppressed" when i was watching - if u know wad i mean. I guess its like an extract from the book, that sort of Harry Potter or Twilight movies that loses some of the essences of the story. But if u wan a fantasy movie these days, go for it, coz i guess its one of the better movie out in the cinema for the time being. =)

chu san, wake and packed some clothes and was sorting + deleting photos from hdds. Yue came bai nian and then i went dinner with family then went over to her place bai nian. Overall quite a good day. lol. Din see dear coz he had sch and tuition at night. =| and i had a hard time packing... (and am suppose to repack it now but can't help sticking to the com coz i will not have internet for the next 1 month... at least).

chu si, wake early and did sorting for photos again. hm... then have been waiting for dear to come pick me up for lunch... =.= suppose to have lunch around 1+ 2 ended up 2.41 then reach and 3.15 then had lunch at waraku ecp. Coz i really wan to eat more jap food before i go back =( wasai in adelaide is abit too pricy for the quantity tho there is quality. And sushi train is simply ex - not worth the money. So we did have some good food, erm. but extremely food like that time at cathy (i like that restaurant more! coz we had good food there, but that was a bit ex too, at least was v filling). then only reach his place around 5+... then an hour later he told me that we are gg to his ah ma's place for 撈起! surprise surprise... coz i never 撈魚生 before and that's their tradition here in sg. So it's quite an experience and quite fun to be there. Happy to tag alone again. Dinner was good and the doggie there likes me too! 2nd time i saw her and she remembered me. Keep licking my hand and wants me to play with her, erm scratch her belly most of the time. Ah ma din let us help with the cleaning after dinner, and we were told to sit down and watch TV. Oh TV, once i start staring i will just keep staring.. lol. Din stay there v long, headed back to his place around 8+ coz we have to sort photos and clear hdds. =.= chores that i procastinated till now. So nite ends there with dear sending me home.

Chu wu, today wake quite late. keep waking now and then but utimately wake around 12. din sleep well, wake with headaches and stuff. and there i am in front of the com since i wake up. Checking emails, facebooks, blog and trying to do as much with the internet and also sorting pics most of the time again. okey will log off in 5 coz larry need internet and i better pack finsih before 6 so i can go dinner with family and meet up with dear later on! and tmr i better read journels on the flight else i would be quite dead meat! have to decided the project tonite and give my Dr. a reply before i leave! ARGH still so many things to do and the thing i hate is always organsing and sorting because there is only sub-minimial difference in the pics that i take and packing of clothes its just difficult when the temperature fluacutrates so often! okey... off i go. I hope to spend more time with dear tmr =) so buck up now! tata

New Year Resolution

2009-01-30T12:18:00.002+08:00

here i go again with new year resolution and i hope i could achieve them this time round.... but u know its hard to change ur old habits.

1) To Sleep early (before 12midnight)
2) To have a balance diet (not either too much carbo or too much vegs)
3) To exercise weekly (this is the one that i can never keep up to)
4) To be prepare for the unexpected & keep up with work (I lost self-control after exchange... lazy around too much)
5) To write and to keep in touch with friends! (have not be writing v often)
6) To read more books (other than journels), to keep myself up-to-date
7) To smile more, be more friendly
8) To think more before i act

Hm i will stop at 8 items for the good luck and i think 8 is already hell lots for me to change this year... HAHAHA

Since 一年之計在于春 i should set some achievable goals for the year.

1) keep up with lab work, mix in and score well for honours (nth is more impt than that!)
2) improve in public speaking (i think kam would be able to help alot)
3) to learn driving! (need a teacher before that...hm..)
4) to find a job and be hired by latest end of this year! (please grant me a gd job for next year)
5) to improve my cooking and baking skills (with a more conductive kitchen that should work well)

Lastly, i should get my wish list here too... just to keep them off my head. haha

to travel downunder - cities and states that have not been and visit some long lost friends AND hopefully that dear could earn enough money to join me!

so far i think that's the only wish here, others that i have are not as possible and plausible for my state of finance. lol. So getting a gd job should be my 2nd wish here....

Hope that everyone will have good health this year!

emoticons

2009-01-27T01:20:00.007+08:00

started collecting dear's handdrawn emoticon when we chatted on msn... damn funny. they looked like those "cakes" in my blog (above) and today when we go mos and eat, he realised that it looked like the mos burger toys that they came out with. hahaha. cute!

the very first 2 models that came out... first one is of own will.. 2nd one coz i request to see his cute face in drawings again.... (1st: >.<, 2nd: -.- the blur look)

Same goes for the 3rd and 4th one coz i do think they really looked like him, and whenever i see these cartoons, they just make me tot of his birdie head and make me laugh!

(3rd: =D the happy look, 4th: =) the contented look)

I bet it will be heaps funnier if he does that real live. If i could, i would definitely record it down man! kimmy, u gotta watchout! hahahahahha

NUS lectures Part II

2009-01-26T00:20:00.002+08:00

Went to nus for lectures with dear again last week. Of one, there was this 4D lectures that i went in and really cannot take it for the whole 2 hours. 4D is not lottery, but defined as the 4 dimensions that i experienced, of which, i found one of it was unnecessary and unpleasent. the 4th dimension here is SMELL.

It was a after noon lecture from 2-4, physics lecture in LT 7A eng building. Lecturer? unknown, coz we went in late and I din go for the introductory lecture so i dunno who. Anyway he sounded very american and i reckoned that he should be one.

I suppose his lecture was good... i a sense that sometimes i will still look up from my journels and trying to hear wad he was teaching. but the atmosphere in that lecture was just not conducive enough for learning. What i meant was not the lecture hall physically. It was a well-equipped lecture hall, just that the nature of the lecture, thus there are more males than females in the lecture. Hence, the biological aura of men has literally filled the air and almost killed a sensitive nose like mine.

Smell concentrates at the back rolls of the lecture hall or rather that was where i was located near to. Those guys in front of me, most of them were chatting away and some with laptops on their table. Of all, one guy caught my attention - not because he was an eyecandy (and he never was anyway) but because of what he was viewing with his mini white laptop.

Very interesting. I guess the physics lecture must have bored him that he was viewing photos of women dressing in bikini or less with sexy poses and all... wad lustful desires during lectures that men could have! It was interesting to see how he was screening them one by one and at the end, it turned out that he had a folder of them! woah, i bet all guys would have their own private collections. But that guy infront was viewing it with people next to him, it seems like the are sharing the joy such photos.

so if u are teaching in nus, i have given u insights that wad ur studnets could do during lectures with their lappie in front. For those who love viewing such pics during lectures... big brother is watching you. lol. and girls, won't u be disguested by the action of such guys during lecture IF they are sitting near to u? I would. a total turn off.

FREAK!

2009-01-16T02:52:00.002+08:00

Oh FREAK! I sit here typed so long and pressed "SAVE NOW" every now and then. Then wad, com restarted with webpage open and everything I typed for sooooooo long is now gone! GONE! kaoz! Then wad the freak is the use of the SAVE NOW button!? Tell me please! Blogger.com!REturn me my post! ARGH!

Reviewing my Graduation

2009-01-16T01:51:00.006+08:00

Hiax, it is kinda sad when i see some photos of my graduation and when the most impt moment when i am in the hall and on stage. Pictures taken by my dad shook big time till u can't even see wad the hell it is!!!!!! ARGH! really frustrating when it was the first time I graduated and all I get is some blurry lousy shots! REally, very disappointing and honestly, it was not exactly as enjoyable as I would have imagined. At least not when I have to keep the "person" in check and to make sure they were not too embarrassing. ARGH. to think of it just gave me more steam. Never had any good memory when he was around anyway.

That's precisely when We need a better compact camera and a better skilled photographer! Hiax, it was so sad that Mr. Goh Tuan cannot make it, and so was his camera, which was already loaned to Francis.

Guess next year I would have my graduation in Singapore, so that I can save so money and get better pics with better landscapes and hopefully to borrow the grown for a longer period of time to make the most out of it. That would be the last time with graduation grown and the stole. I would really love to get some good shots with Stamford Raffles. lol. Kinda sad that I have 1/2 decided not to go on in academic for a wizard hat... but who knows...

Well, for those haven't graduate yet, let me tell u, graduation day, its like wedding day (a milder version i guess... coz u dun nid THAT much of preparation). U try to sleep early the day before, worrying if everything will goes well. Sleep v little and wake ultra early to put on ur make up and ur suits, be at the venue early - okey going into hall with heaps of people is different... i dun suppose u get thousands of people signing different marriage cert at the same time do you... unless that's like a group thing or wadever. lol. So we were briefed in elder hall and proceeded to the Main hall. Parents and friends seated, with music played from skilled musicians (music students of the uni) and there come strolling in the Professors and Chancellor of the university (yea not the bride. lol). When they are seated, someone gave a speech, and there goes the award giving ceremony.

One by one we followed on stage and when our names called. That was the moment, and excitement was felt and you walked proudly up the stage, shook hand with the chancellor and smiled at the camera, collected the parchment - And Time's up! Your one minute of frame was gone before you knew it. That one long minute which represented your three years of hard work. Something that is precious, that belongs to you. For the very first time where everyone present within the hall acknowledge your achievement. Something very memorable.

So people ask how u feel after the ceremony, being a graduate... At that moment, or rather now, i still feel "like that lo". But there is something different.

Only as time goes by, when i have to return to aus for honours, then i realise, i have no more lectures to go for, and my life as a undergraduate ends. Tragically, because there is simply nothing very exciting happened besides exchange. abit disappointing, because i din seems to have achieve lot in life. There is just so much discontent. may be it's just me being pessimistic, looking at the future that is not quite bright especially in time like this. Hearing bee's friends insight in Singapore's life science job and my family friend advice, it just seems that getting a job in Biomedical industry is abit low pay and hard compared to overseas... no wonder my friends tell me to stay on and work for a year or 2....

But I have my reasons, yet, that sole reason is not going to be helpful, if CIA is not going to give me another year(s) of PR in Singapore. Seriously. is this wrong time or bad luck. there are just so many obstacle and ordeal that keep coming forth. I just want to have a good life with a gd pay job after I finish my study and start working for my future and happiness. man. Life is really tough....

Sch REopen! NUS

2009-01-14T01:24:00.004+08:00

Today went for "lectures" at nus... yea tagged along my dear to lecture. I can tell how happy he was. lol. grining the moment we managed to siam that signboard when turning into the carpark.

Eng fac in nus was not as bad as I have imagined. The buildings are pretty new and there are aircon in most places. I guess my impression was being misled by the presentation of nus science fac buildings.

So first day going into nus, seeing how student have their lectures and their way of uni life, it's quite an experience. I was tagging along him like a lost dog, really lost... going up the stairs then take the life and walked through some twist and turns and going down the stairs again. man! its tiring okey! i have never walk so much stairs in my 3 years uni life in 2 unis. At most I have only climbed the hills in glasgow, and walked down the stairs and slopes in adelaide. WHY on earth nus have so many stairs! Its super hilly!

Had lunch at eng fac canteen before 1st lecture at 12noon. Met zhengwei and his other friends in the LT. 2 lectures for today and each 2 hours - some eng mod and 1 history ssa. yup, i know, they are weird man, taking sub that not related to any of their course. sth call "GEM" for general module or sth, then they still have core modules from their own course. The more I hear, the more I feel that I am so lucky to be overseas, where the enrollment and course system is not as complicated (i.e. troublesome without much advantage in the learning of student - i really dun see the point in bidding for ur module and refundings "points" to u...its like a child's play).

Anyway, I must say Dr. Beer gave me a first hand in training my listening in lecture and guessing where he comes from. lol, i guess he is quite am interesting guy, but really I never heard someone speaks like that in lecture. But I was told that he is not that bad, there were worst and they had them for the last sem, lectures go like bullet train without a break... or rather they are chanting for the high score of their students? which i guess it doesn't contribute that much if their student can't catch wad they said anyway. Lecturers overseas usually speaks english in reasonable pace and their accents are not that hard to understand, though some of them do have their uniqueness. (Thank god that i never have a lecture with heavy scottish accent for lectures....)

First hour in that lecture hall, my brain already switched off, I only managed to stay a wake for a wee while and read a page or two of my journels. Man, that was boring, and I was not the only one in my own world. The lecture hall was filled with chatters and people are either online doing sth else, or like me fishing in the sea of chants.

Right, that 2 hours finally passed and I followed weekim and friend to central lib for notes printing before the 2nd lecture. And u won't believe this: we are sitting on the floor just where u step into the lecture hall - well we came late, but there WERE really that many people taking this module. The feeling was like, we paid $64 bucks for a concert at the mountain top kind of box seats, where u heard the voice but dun get to see the "popstar"'s face.

History - building a nation - sound super like a society study chapter in secondary sch right? Yup, that introductory is no less about "culturing" the younger generation of theirs nation's proud history dispite of their 43years of independence. The lecturers were not as boring, when it came to show-casing Singapore's achievements - pretty interesting facts like some that we already known, of two, quite interesting - Singaporeans are the most MOTIVATED workers (My interpretation - all are willing to do ...erm.. take a step further - skw) But Singaporeans are also the most UNHAPPIEST people (not sure in asia or on earth) but yea, unhappy dispite of all their affluence in society and national achievements. I must say, Singaporeans are trying their best to set standards for their neigbouring countries or even the west. Wad more I can say when the facts are real and they flashes through the screen in the LT. lol. I was just kinda surprised that Hong Kong was that little bit behind Singapore. Afterall, we were the leading "country" (back then - we see ourselves as separate from the mainland, then and now) . We have the freedom of speech, but not all voiced opinions were converted the changes for the better of the society by those with powers... well, a personal opinion that is. Anyway, drop that sub, I am no good nor I have interest in politics.

So the 4 hours of lectures ended 15 mins earlier. We then followed to the central lib again to photocopy their readings (man. history, all about reading X.X lucky that is not me), on the way bumping into jinrong, who helped me into the lib so I dun have to wait outside like dog on leash tied to a pole. The lib is quite big I would say, I guess its either comparable to or abit bigger (therefore may be less books) than the one in adelaide. However, it is absolutely 'no kick' compare to the glasgow one. 12 storeies on a hill and i guess thousands of com free to use, nus still have to equip their lib with more.

Lib - boring, then went down to co-op (i.e. bookshop - WHY they are called co-op? anyone can explain?) to check out the book that he needs for lecture. And we need to keep out bags in lockers, quened for enquiry and wait for them to get the book and scan then know the price =.=" impressive. i guess they should have just keyed in the price with name or author and just check using com? well,may be its just 2nd day of sch and they are not handling with the flood of students. I can see that they earn heaps, coz a super thin book already cost $18.80. crazy. no wonder there are so much student priates out there. In glasgow, the lib has that many copies of book to borrow that u dun have to worry - lecturers actually tell u dun bother about buying textbook; whereas aus is different, they wan the uni the earn the most out of ur years u are there. Sorry about the comparsion, but I can't help to keep comparing.

So eventually we get to a snack stall after the up and down and turns around the uni, some cakes and buns to fuel my brain before heading home. Quite a fun day actually, and I do enjoy the fun of going back to sch - not studying there that is. hahahahah. I should be going sch for the next 2 weeks. so there may be many more "discoveries" to be made.

New skin, New year!

2009-01-12T15:59:00.005+08:00

Finally understood the way to change a new blog skin without losing my archives and managed to choose a blog skin that is reader friendly with great help from yin yue... lol... that pigglet...

at first chose the skin that have to scroll left and right to read... somemore the space for my post are v restrictive.... not v good for my beady eyes to read... so in the end change back to this one that i quite like when i first saw it =) coz the cake simply looks cute and it may serve as a constant reminder: not to eat junkies.. lol... may have opposite effect.. hahahahah just hope i wont do project until no time to cook this year.

A new year is coming. 2009 has come but for those who missed the chance to get a change like me, you can join me celebrating chinese new year instead. so u can get ready for a change in life this year =D I do hope that things would get better. No MORE RUBBISH HOUSEMATES, I wish only for a biological safe, hygienic and healthy environment to live in. I hope for the better in looking for a suitable house and new considerate housemate. Yea, if we manage to get a 3 br house anytime soon that would be great. I would solely look for a girl, and hopefully she would either be a Singaporean, Malaysian or Aussie. Exchange students are welcome, as long as u are clean, quiet, friendly and considerate.

Coz I had enough of those freaks that yell during exam, leaving plates in the sink for weeks, and unfinsihed food in pots for months. Smoke in the shower room and never take out trash. The best part is, they dun even know wad is recycle bin for. oh, and they do have random friends coming over.... basically, i like to sum it up as i usually describe:
"its a Bio-harzard and health-harzard place to stay, and i need at least a PC2 environment to counter that..."

So yea, no more dirty jobs for me. I have enough both from them and from my family. Enough is enough. Call it a stop and a change in life!

AND YEA! FREAKS I WISH I CAN GET SOME GOOD GRADUATION PHOTOS! DAMN THAT LOUSY CAMERA THAT MY DAD WAS USING. that really sux. and i hope there is a chance for me to get some good grad photos in adelaide. really, i just wan that castle like photos, if not no point studying there for so many years. ARGH. freaks

hoping for a better year for everything to come. the later half of 2008 was just a bad time in adelaide. I wish for a better year.

I am Bored

2008-09-12T23:51:00.004+08:00

seeing me coming back to the blog means, i am bored. sth must be driving my little brain crazy and there is no place or no one for me to tak to. yup. i din update since like april. coz i was 1) lazy, 2) it was exam period in glasgow and i was busy planning my may and june post exam activites - trips and more trips. 3) the weather was just so damn gd there during that time. i miss it!

I really miss glasgow alot. being an exchange is fun, and only those who are exchange like u will understand wht you havce been through.

I like to be different, that's why i chose to study in Adelaide which was used to have lesser people from hongkong (now alot - so please dun come to study if u want a hker free environment. PS> no discrimination coz i am a hker myself).

I chose not to merge house with best buddy then, coz i want to know more people - but ended up in quite deep shit. I chose to go exchange - coz i want to make the most ouf of my parent's money. To go somewhere that my dad has been asking me if i want to me since primary 5. (Dad: " do you wan to go uk to study. if u study hard u can get into cambridge.." some sort like that) but well, i din make it there to cambridge. Way up north in the land of Scotland. I chose glasgow over Newcastle in England. Based not only on academic, but also because Newcastle has the no.1 night life in europe i dun wan to go there. Two, because jeremy told me that scotland suits me more and i will love it. PS> Jeremy is one of my best buddy who guide me so much when i was lost and still continue to give support despite sometime he will get pissed off with me. But we are all just human. I appreciate ur support =)

But yea, what ever you choose is not necessary the right thing to do. I was happy to go exchange, but no one would ever understand if u have to stuck in a foreign country for Christmas and there are no one else around u. Friends? Sing me, myself and i! When u are stress while everyone else thinks that u are going crazy. Its only for Paradie and Sura who are my bestie housemates understood most. I really miss you guys tho i should write that in facebook instead. haha.

Life come and goes, i was flown from hk to sg, sg to aus, aus to uk and uk now back to aus. Yea it does look impressive, it seems that it could be an enjoyment. It is definitely a privilege, thanks to my parents who are open-minded and supportive in my education. Through life like this, i have learnt, i have reflected. But yet, life is not in my control. We have no control over what will and what will not even tho we always think that there is a way of prevention. Effort spent does not always equates to what you get. you always have to put in more to get just that bit of something that you wanted.

Thanks to Allen and Ulrike, i learnt great ways of life to relax and to see the world differently. I love Germany. Thanks to Ramiro who shared his career experience with me and being the most helpful at all time. Loving all the dinner together when are houses are at walkable distance. Wine, cheese, pasta, sushi love it all! Thanks to Paradie who brought us closer and bring us joy in our close. I felt like home for the first time. U did warm me up =) There is so many people who made changes in our lives. I din learn to appreciate friends as much before i went for exchange. In my life there WAS only competitors and non-competitors. they could be ur friends buy they still compete with u one way or the other. That kind of stressful mentality did give me gd grades, but made me lost what i treasured most. Like the Chinese saying "人比人；比死人。" i guess it could really happen if u reach that level of stress and insomnia. Thank God u din take me away.

Its only when you are far away from sth that you loved, something that was always there for u, then u realise how impt it is in your life. Friends, i might not be a person v gd in expressing myself. I am deeply sorry for what i have done to some of u, but you guys din give up in me, or rather - that's wad i think. look on the bright side of life. think the better of the people. they are being your friends and will not forget you or wad so ever. well. loads of bullshit. but i will take that. As you grow older, the more you see, the more u realise, how artificial the world is! everyone geared up since young, trained to mask yourself. Til then, u realise that truths never exist, or rather, they are often six-feet under.

sorry to have tortured those who have read this, i know the whole thing does not flow. coz my trends of thoughts were very messed up. I need a place to straighten things out. to get back my way of life. yea. i was bored.

Our 3rd Anniversary!

2008-04-19T04:36:00.004+08:00

Doesn't this look yummy to u? Swiss roll, strawberry ice cream and lemon juice (lemon juice?!) Give it a closer look, that cake dun quite look edible right.. lol (FOOD THAT HAD GONE PAST THE CUSTOME WITHOUT BEING STOPPED!!!)

These are my 精神食粮of the year...They are airflown to me from SINGAPORE - GLASGOW to relief my mental & emotional hungriness (but stimulate physical hungriness =s) with the Swiss roll towel, and Ice cream note and Paper juice (sponsored by Double A paper - lol they really have their logo there... )

I first saw them in Thailand during CNY last year with my mom in the departmental store.... they are just so cute and look so edible! and my dear got me this for our 3rd anniversary! A celebration for us making thru 3 years together, with 22/36 months LDR (super straining - which my dog keep complaining and doing all sort of little tricks trying to get me home asap... lol) Yea... i know, but wad to do? there is nth i wan to do in NUS or NTU, unless i become a sensei like fuichin & yinyue? nah... i never want to be a clinic doctor anyway.

Still, thank you dear for not giving up on me, being so DAMN far away, dealing with all the time differences (first 2 hours now 7 hours... max 8) AND the complaint queen here. *oops* Its quite an "achievement" but not like one would wan to do it. Soon yea, soon we will reunite in MY COUNTRY =p... looking forward to the exploration of continental Europe with u. It was definitely GREAT fun for me during march and i never regretted having only 10 days to mug for exam. (still having internal debate if i should do the same for finals =s dodgy i know)

like u said, its a short time but still a long way. its like travelling on thin ice. hm. *pinchie dog nose* u know, that sound a bit pessimistic to me, so why not melt the ice and we will both swim to the shore =p landing on solid ground to where our foundation was. (that's my point of view)

Hm, let's sleep well and prepare for wadever we have to acomplished before the holiday ba! *seems more of talking to myself only* u doggie must take care okey... i wonder how it would be when i see u in glasgow, i am day dreaming about it everyday =p and pretend to hug u until u comes!!!!

ich liebe dich!!! FUR IMMER!

It has been 3 years and we are still counting! and 3 anniversaries i was all overseas -.-" i promised i will be home for the next one okey!? hm that means i will have to learn more langauge to prevent from running out of phase to express my love for ya!
may be will take up some language course when i come back. yup I WILL come back *hugs*

post-Glucose Intolerance Test (OGTT)

2008-04-13T21:11:00.004+08:00

consequence of the faulty meter, leading to the need of drawing more blood -.-"

Punctured Paw #1

Punctured Pinky, paw #2

but i must say that one of the best lab i ever attended... coz it fun and something new that i have never learn before. Kinda useful and gd to keep track of ur BGL! self test on diabetes! WEll, my result did show up as a weird graph tho!

It take me 90mins for my BGL to peak, but lucky it within the limits and dropped drastically within 30mins thereafter. Can't remember who tell me that graph is looking gd - low tendency of DM. Well, duno, just make sure u guys keep track on ur BGL too ;)

It's so true...

2008-02-18T02:49:00.000+08:00

March 24, 1986

Lucky Color: Amber
Personality Strengths: Compassion, Love
Personality Weakness(es): Impatience
Successful Career Path: Natural Science
Sense of Humor Style: Sarcastic
Adjectives to Describe You: domineering, enterprising

Description:A hip non-conformist who truly stands for his/her beliefs - you are out to make a difference in this world, and you have a realistic chance of success. You have always been self-driven and derive your inspiration from those close to you. Ambitious - and why shouldn't you be - the sky is the limit for you!

Hate & Love

2008-02-14T05:32:00.000+08:00

haix... all the more i hearing things about wad's happening back in hk, all the more i dun wan to go back. Its just tuff being born in such a traditional family. or rather, with such old fashioned MCP dad. yesh. he is. It just disheartening to hear things.

why couldn't he treat her nicer? has the man forgotten the one he loved most has always been with him through all hardship.
then, why mock her, why torture her to such degree which both parties suffer?
His act is sadistic.
His heart had died.
He let the past of his sibling governs his life and forgotten his wife and children, who
sooner or later, would have no recollection of him as he was.
leaving like the spirit does.

its always the tiny little things that shows love and hate.
its always a fine line between such drastic emotions.
But who would know when they are blinded by the past?
They are blinded, and they would continue to suffer in the tragidy.

honestly, regardless of who they are, i just hate people who are victimizing themselves. even if they are my family, relatives. I would be as crual as reality.

All these hate and love; its soft, its hooey.

its irritating.

Happening Feb

2008-02-10T21:56:00.000+08:00

Man.... last week was buzy with minimal courswork already (coz i am not doing it =.=)

have been watching kiddy animes now and then when i really have time - i was not studying!!! ARGGGGGhhh

Jan: last 2 weeks of jan keep running to city centre coz at first saw cheap stuff and happen to found the dress that Dear spotted in Singapore topshop! i actually wore it in UK topshop =.= lol, so went back to get it ... after alot of twist and turn (really long story: a cheena girl tried it and ended up cutting up the dress coz she got stuck in a Petitie size 6!!! then another customer who got my size - petite size 8 - returns the dress coz she can't fit) i finally bought the dress at 13.5GBP, 5 times less than SG. crazy right... coz student have 10% discount and that dress is on sale.

So tot that that would be my only shopping, ended up jan keep raining and all my shoes start to spoil.... The converse had whole at the sole there =( the one and only sneaker that was water proof =s.... the reebok one just like sponge....Finally ended up running on boots to uni for 2 days... and guess wad! boots sole crack!

Last 2 days of jan, went shopping and looking for shoes. Returned the boots - got them refund me the $$ =) so then scouted for shoes... went to this sport shoes shop that was really value for money! I spotted this orange adidas climacool crosstraining shoes - love at first sight! found my size also - bought it at 15 pounds. Then got a walking shoes that is water proof for 15 pounds also =0 lastly, almost 6pm ran off to Bhs again to check if they have the same pair of my boots with 1 size bigger - coz that last pair of boots was actually 1 size smaller -> so i strained my feet *still pain til now* and i got a discount for that!!! got it only 9pounds! the last pair i got it during boxing day was 15 pounds - original price 30 okey...

So yea... my shopping deals are dead cheap... lol...

then the next day i went to arran

2nd - 4th Feb

It snowed on sat! beautiful!!! but the subsequent day the weather jus sux
honestly the trip was suppose to be 2 day 1 nite returning glasgow on 3rd evening, but due to super bad weather on the island, the 2 ferry service was cancelled and we were stranded on the isle. Came back only around noon on Monday. So skipped lecture and lab on that day. Went home do luandry and watched anime.... damn... i should have slept!

5th Feb - Pancake tuesday
some christian fest that got commcecialised. So Went Chris's place to have pancake dinner.
something interesting and new

6th Feb
finsihed lecture went to finish up my lab report and went home... feeling lazy and watched anime again!!!

7th Feb
day off =0 v tired after waking, chatted with dear for 5.30hours... lol... that celine's sms shocked me and hai wo din sleep well !!! *super irritated* coz i was so worried and she din even reply my sms! Upload pics on facebook half of my day =.-

8th Feb
busy day for classes.... after class went tesco shopping for ingrediant for pineapple tarts. Make pineapple tarts with James til 1.30 am =.= *totally sleepy*

9th Feb
Went down to find Alex... i was extremely sleepy, but ended up pei-ing her bake cookies and make sushi and check out hostels... til 5, went back to get change and walk to Lung Fung with Paradie and James to the restaurant for CNY dinner! sleep about 1+ am also... listen to SHE til cannot sleep =.=

10th Feb...
doing alot of banking and other rubbish....
upload pics on facebook also, and trying to write some letter and adverstisement ...
WHEN CAN I START DOING MY HW AND STUDY!?!?!? haix too many things to maintain

My First Exam & Results...

2008-01-25T19:53:00.000+08:00

Oh well, i just studied it during my miserable christmas... getting so stressed up, having insomia and almost giving up on studying...

After 10 days of chionging. i did 5 topics (i spotted) and out of 8 qns that came out, only 2 is super confident (basically only spotted 2... ) 失败！never did my spotting become so lousy. nevermind... luckily i was a mugger in Adelaide... banging on my ~LaSt~ semster's knowledge, I Crapped! (last sem was 2007 sem 1.. lol) I LOVE ADELAIDE!!! if not for wad they teach there, i can't slack so much and travel so much here instead and still standing in quite good ground in Glasgow.

So what happened during the exam... I WAS THE ONLY BIOMED STUDENT THAT WENT FOR THE EXAM... (1 out of 3, somemore i am an exchange..) lol..... and the EXAM WAS 5% OUT OF 15%.... if i know i wont even bother to study like exam... okey tis still and exam but... the level of stress would have been lower and it would not be that detrimental to my health! coz I start seeing fine lines on my forehead after the exam and i am AGING... okey i am such a freak like many of my friends said and i am obivously worrying too much.

During the test, the first essay was not well planned even tho it was my favourite topic and i did quite alot of work on that... but its the first exam so i am not quite use to writing under exam condition - after like half a year of no-mugging. So well 2nd qn was quite gd. Feel gd. subsequent 3rd and 4th qn i was doing a lot of choosing and then trying to crap things out for classifying the 20 a.a. (can u imagine u are doing SUCH qns when are u already a 3rd year - okey i din score for that one at all but still its dun seems to be the things for 3rd year) anway. and the last qn that i choose was a total mistake.. Genetics... and i din even touch Genetic engineering, Gene cloning those chapter... Bang totally on that DNA workshop which we had early last year. And i DIN FINISH THE QN coz i was just dragging time and trying to write that in last 15 mins.

Does these seems quite bad for the exam? i din think much. But more or less know i will pass. That's all i cared for back then.

Today i saw the paper. Jus as expected. I will give u a break down on my score: (qn are numbered in the order i described them above)

Qn1: A4 (excpeted an A2 actually or there about - but loss mark prob due to bad planning)
Qn 2: A2 ( i love ethanol metabolic pathway... so there u go)
Qn 3: C1 ( this is the 20 a.a. classification qn - i din study that... only did that last year when lynn roger keep asking in class ... write things base on vague memory)
Qn 4: D1 ( i wrote half an essay... did until the getting the Gene of Interest only, din even write more then that... Marker's comment: "SO U RUN OUT OF TIME? NOT ENOUGH SUBSTANCE". When i see it i was like.."yea man... i make it such that i hve no time to write for it... lol coz i dun quite remember ... haha)

Meeting with the coorindators was okey. They tell me that i am getting a B2 overall - 2nd class honours eqivalent.. so i was alright with that... Explained abit of how come i am getting these grades and tell them how i feel about the exam and my expectation. They have no opinion so it was fine. I said: since i am an exchange and i not gg to study the way i did in Adelaide because then it would be pointless to come all the way and i am suppose to go back and promote Glasgow uni... so i am quite happy with what i get as long as u guys are happy with my grades.. lol... I also told them that it was obvious that i was spotting qn and lack preparation, but yea " i will start studying now..." Angela Watt laught... lol.. but i was fine with that ...

COZ I REALLY HAVE TO BE CONSISTENT THIS SEM... as i am gg away to somewhere and having so many gatherings / social events with people... so its only wise to do things consistent and picking up my momentum, preparing myself for Adelaide. So TatA i am off to finally study my pharmacology.

Feel so gd typing here. It frees my mind sometimes. I love med sch lib also. too bad i am not a med student.

3 seasons in 1 morning & subsequent events

2008-01-25T19:24:00.000+08:00

I tot Adelaide was crazy enough, Glasgow even more li hai...

Morning on the way the uni (getting to the botanic garden) it sort of rained / hailed... v mild... then it started pouring (my feet totally wet... bad choice of shoes... actually no choice coz my converse shoe got a hole at the bottom!!! >.<~ and i can't run on heels - okey i did that today) then fine... when i reach University Ave, THE SUN is OUT. damn... u see blue sky.... _._

Then after lecture it was still bright tho getting abit cloudy... decided to try out the med sch lib for my phamacology textbook. Gd luck and settled down to study... its just about 10 mins after i settled (10.30am - lecture ended at 10am) the sky became super dark, like to stomry weather in singapore... and it SNOWED!!!! wad on earth right... snowed for about 30 mins at least... lol... then sunshine again. no rain and quite alrite til about just afternoon. the Pour again....

Okey bascially the cycles then repeats without the snowing part or else i din see it... coz i was hiding in my room online and checking out air tix and stuff already...

Oh! another interesting thing yesterday. On my way home, just outside my block there I saw a Fox! its rare to see them coming out during day and it was staring at me.. I went near it, it moved backwards and hide in the bush; i moved away and it came out.. lol... so i took some pics with my hp... posting up soon.. paiseh for low quality pics first.. my hp not zai and i dun bring camera to uni =x

At nite went to Burn's nite celebration at Bute Hall in the Uni... that's another thing.

It was such a buzy day for the wrong things... i have not study (only that 1 plus hour of pharmacology) and not even researched for my essay cAMP which due next weds....

UK ar.... i dunno wad to say.

I only got to sleep about 2am.... coz went back home wanted to sleep ended up chatting with Alana - she is my travel advisor and great to have met her during this exchange! chat chat chat she tell me about flights and i got totally freak out and stress coz dunno where to flight and what to book...

*GD news* i booked the flight with ryanair from glasgow to frankfurt with £11!!! *grin* lol it was just one day and the price dropped £14.. heng i din go and buy on weds... Paradie was just fred up coz she dunno how i managed that all the time.

Did I tell u guys that i went to london on a 2Pence tix and totally transport fees from city centre to city centre (London - Glasgow) return was only £12.02? hohoho! i am one stingy traveller.

Anyway then i chatted with my mom and asked alot of my friends opinion to check in luaggage or not.. tell u! air tix price rises and drop even faster then stock market! see air tix make me more stress then seeing stock i guess (have no stock yet but will try investment when i grad) coz its 24/7 and people all over the world are booking it. stock market still got time limit... =.="

So the conclusion for now is that... i eyed 2 tix for vienna to paris and paris to glasgow... but then i haven book it... will be dicussing with Alex *finger cross that she would be my travel buddy* hopefully today or so.. and then book tmr. So at least settle all the tix stuff then can do essay first THEN start checking out hostels and buying bus tix for cross countries: Dresden to Prague, Prague to Vienna.

I guess this is when i realise the gd of being international. and be Exchanged.

March plans

2008-01-20T06:38:00.000+08:00

my feb and jan plan is almost fixed, i got a day off on the 7th of Feb which is the 1st day of CNY. so probably decided to do some city tours, 3 venues: Glasgow city itself ( honestly i have not been around at all - shame to say), Edinburgh - been there once with the wrong group of people... din get to see much, or Aberdeen... which is quite far away but the tix on that day is cheap! its 2 pounds for returns... coz its a weekday... still deciding =s coz dunno if i would have alot of course work and just decide to stay home or sth....

anyway, there comes march. i die die wan to be in france for my bday, writing postcards on the effel tower and sending them off with that chop on it.. especially because IT's my birthday! die die must go there. So there comes in the problem... how to get there. by ending the trip in France or go abit futher to amdsterdam? I dun have that much of time also, coz i nid to get back asap to prepare for my next exam, sad to say i hate the way they do things... make me can't enjoy my hols at all.

Sandy and Nic both commented that i should have go to Stonehench, Bath, Oxford and Cambridge that time when i was in london for a week. But seriously i was alone and i dun feel like gg so far away all alone. I have to admit that i won't dare to do it, coz i feel i am not as strong as i was anymore. At least its a fact that i can't out run anymore. So... dear also said he wanted to go stonehench next time, may be i will bring him to these city as well, after all u really dun nid that much of time in london itself. 1 week, it already made me a londoner. Magical huh.

So ... looked like the ending point is France. so how to go about it to do the trip?

First, i wanted to go these places:
-Amsterdam
-Germany (Berlin, Dresden, Munich)
-Prague
-Vennia (These 2 die die wan to go... coz missed that choir trip in jc.. a life time regrets)
-Paris (For bday!)
AND this place
-Riga ( happens to popped out because my German friend wanted to go there, it suppose to be v beautiful and cheap! coz its eastern european country.)
-probably Luxembourg also? i dunno depending on time, $$ and flight... i have no idea how to get back to glasgow....

But then alot of people highly recommended Amsterdam!!!! argh... and air tix to amsterdam is even more ex then that to Riga!

so.. its seems like the starting point would be like this:

Riga / Amsterdam --> Germany (coz my friend nid to go home) --> Prague --> Vennia --> Germany (munich) --> Paris / Amsterdam / Luxembourg....
coz luxembourg seems interesting to me.... =(

okey i know wad u guys are thinking. too Ambitious. Way too Ambitious... well this is just rough plans to wat i wanted... i dun have to go all at one shot.. coz... i am gg a max of 12 days... yea... 12 days only... not any more than that...

At first i only think of gg 4 countries, so each 3 days average (+/-) lah...
Germany, France, Chezh, Austria... its all seems okey,
but the prob is no cheap tix to these places. i dunno how to go round it... haix i hate this...

the there we found Riga... but do u think its gd idea to go from riga on train all the way to erm, germany? i think probably i will end up in Prague first...? hm now i have checked out the interrail map, u can't take train from Riga down to Prague, the only way si to fly... arh.. i dunno which country is gd ... hm... i think i would actually do this. dun go riga, but get a tix to Amsterdam some how, or germany, or even prague, and then with interrail tix, it should save quite a sum for country hopping.

hm.,.. i will update this after i have much more thoughts...

shit.. i am not studying again... i suppose to study genetics ... exam on tuesday... i think i really want to die for it liao... =.= van... wake up your idea... haix....

Heartache

2008-01-19T03:57:00.000+08:00

that was the feeling i had. for that moment.

I teared, fiercely as if i have lost my love.

Or was it the distance torn it apart.

All these fragile and lovable things,

were meant to be crushed

like fireflies, beautiful for a moment in its lifetime.

I am fine, just feel like writing things.

if u realise, its the 18th. 2 years and 9 months.

things happen-ed...

2008-01-04T18:29:00.000+08:00

31st Dec'07: almost got killed by a car if not for James who held me back

1st jan'08: friend drove me home on the wrong side of the road, luckily she realised it after i repeated to her "you are on the wrong side of the road" twice. She is really tired okey so dun blame her. But it was really quite an experience - seeing the head lights of other car coming towrads u... [ head on ]

- i slept the best that night for my entire hols and wake 13.45. very gd sleep and gd day to sleep

2nd jan'08: cynthia's bday but nid to study, din go out with friends for celebration. Rosie had friend over for dinner and newcomer [new housemate] came - Paradies from Canada.

3rd jan'08: too stress for doing laundry and grossery as Paradies said she wants to walk around. So wake up by the 2 in the kitchen toking, and decided to go tesco with her and did laundry after that. extremely tired and stone infront of the com. the only thing that kept me gg was other people's blog. I am such a kpo and really bored. seeing people blog, i also wants to blog. then sabotage my studies - like now -.-"

- also asked tree how much is her housing

.:Santa came Finally and my wishes - 2 of them were granted:.

-1st: My belated CHRISTMAS TREE!!! i met the postman outside my door when coming back from Tesco with Paradies. I have got a letter from Singapore! it's from dear... card as usual - hey i am not complain okey, i know i did said "huh, card again ar" last time, but i still like to recieve them! how dare u lie to me... even on paper =( some more bluff me until so kan xin... u know i trust every single words of u. Then stupid me after reading the letter and u telling me its a lie i still dun get it and feel sorry for u okey. *pinch hard!* yea... u ultimate point of this complaint letter was wanting me to come home. I know it well and was happy that u expressed it to me directly. I feel being wanted =) and finally I have a place where people would want me to return to. [i know u guys - many of u guys - will never understand how it feels being a VERY 'international' student / person.... but yea.. its not easy even tho it give u the convenience to zoom around the globe.]

-2nd: IT SNOWED IN GLASGOW!!! HEAVILY RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY EYES!!! it lasted for about an hour or so at least. it was beautiful, made u feel like u are in the snow flakes globe =D I was overjoyed, frantically taking pics - which failed... oh well, sorry friends, no nice pics... will still put up in facebook and here... i will edit this post later for the pics...

-then, i lost half a container of my toothpaste to the sink - for being clumsy...
-dark rings and insomia-ed... there come the cycle again... i think it will only end it after i have my exam and get the report done... i know i am damn slacker... killing myself away

4th jan'o8: woken up first by Paradies' voice - i think she was toking about 5+am... then around 8.50 by Rosie's door banging experience... hm... finally wake about 9.30 went to kitchen and noted some difference. I wonder if Fenella or Sura is back.. one of them should be back by now just dunno who is that... coz Fenella's luandry rack has clothes on, and Sura's bottled detergent was opened and her knife was being shifted to the microwave. [yesh, now u know how i observe others]

- tree tells me that she is not gg on an exchange: standard arian reaction "WHAT?!" i tot she wanted to go, as badly as i wanted. Upon further questioning, she told me some problem popped up. I guess its either the course or finances, more towards the latter? I dunno. anyway, i hope that she is not disappointed.

FRIENDS : please help me look out for houses around MAY - JUNE period even tho i know u guys would be tight packed by 3rd year ... PLEASE >.<~ coz i wont be back til July. =(

luckily tree tells me now, i haven book airtix yet. but would be coming back around 15th or 16th July because i won be back from europe yet... =s

so now what? i have not touch genetics, reading a blog of the person who doesn't study and complained her results was not gd and how she cried etc.. her life, made me feel like 'trying' out her life? oh crap. impossible for a person like me? but i know people have great expectation on me. Friends said that dun worry u will always do well as u do. but then for the fact that i did not work hard at all, how miracles can happen? If i should know that I wouldn't do well i would have gone for tour for new year and came back then panicked. lol. at least i know i did sth in exchange for my grades. Yes. Exchange.

okey, i think i will concentrate more as i feel slightly better.

2008!!

2008-01-01T10:42:00.000+08:00

actually wanted to blog quite abit de.. but then now i am really really tired.. just wana say here: HAPPY NEW YEAR FRIENDS!!!

luckily went to potluck if not i will be sulking and dead... luckly meet some people and it was a gd game there too!!! yea! i love guss here hahahaha ok nite nite... will blog again soon.

my remedy

2007-12-31T08:30:00.000+08:00

it came... after i talked to francis... lol... the conversation with him was interesting as ever... help me kill some time despite the fact that i a super tired and ... alot of work to do... =( who the hell would mug like me for christmas and new year.. wth... haix.. well not like i really did alot of work BUT. the point is. i should be enjoying and go classouting with everyone at marina bay!!!! T.T *sob* well it was my choice anyway. i guess i would have plenty of classouting *fingercross* after i grad (like in 2009 =s) or so... haix but then nad's last hols is next year!!! i wont be back til 2009 argh.... time flies.

francis pointed out that not any normal singaporean guy can keep up with me, as in, the way i choose to live. (in my understanding lah) i was well aware of that. it's not easy having a LDR for almost 2 years with ur gf overseas and coming home like ONCE a year. It's depressing for both parties. But the fact that it was my choice and there was so many unsucessful cases arise from people gg to aus and uk.... well it was no wonder that friends around him would pity him and worries. I totally understand where they come frome, and was glad to hear a friend speaking up. It's quite interesting to see how guys support / care for each other. lol.

Then of coz he would ask things like "5, 10 years down the road" u know that kind of future qn. To many of my friends here in glasgow, whoever asked, this was the answer:

qn: "how long have you been with him?"
ans: "since high sch ~ 2 years and 8 months"
common response: "omg, how sweet!!! "

qn: "will you get married with him?" [this is a qn that classmates and close friend won't ask - directly- so far]
possible ans: "yea" [economic of words], "if we would last that long" [for people who knows abit more and sounded in doubt]
usually i will get a oic response... lol...

honestly see people getting marry at out age - is not a common thing in the first place, but it feels really nice. there are people planning tho ;) hope to get invited some days.

but yea, out of the topic... He also asked like where would i settle, jobs, yadayada... guess the same would goes for everyone during classouting. its just really common thing when u meet ur firends and say hi and start chatting everything under the sun. People at our age are still searching for directions and trying to see where they could place themselves in the society. so am i.

well so it was a nice chat, really gd advisory session with my all-time advisor. and waited for about 30mins? dunno how long, suddenly see my beam flashing on the screen. lol. so he came in a happy tone. he was really happy, retail therapy helped. hm. not so much for me.... (u have to see who u are shopping with). anyway, so he finally initated to hear each other. Alas! i was saved.

a 2 hours conversation, partial remedy for depression and insomia (i hope) but result in gastric.

anyway, i really wan to hear more. hope to see u in 2008. soon. really soon. ARGH i can't wait for another 6 months!!!! =( sian... why am i an SCIENCE exchange with heaps of work and exam at the wrong time!!!! argh... Yesh, there i go again. u'll have to teach me a new way to complain if u dun wan to get bored by me for the next few decades. *i am warning u now* that is if u ever see this. -.-"

insomia

2007-12-30T16:54:00.000+08:00

Half of the cause was obviously due to stress. But this morning i realised that there is another reason for this sleeplessness. Well, let me tell u about my dream - guess it only lasted like 5 mins.. but i woke me up from my bed... after trying so hard to sleep last nite...

I managed to really relax for last nite i guess, coz i feel better then previous day. I was desperate to hear him last nite. coz i know i miss him soooo much that i can't sleep. i read thru notes and letters, photos that bring me back to the past. Then hugged bluie, and finally found myself in this dream:

i remember trying to call you and somehow it work. u picked up the phone and spoke to me. so i asked, 'are u gaming?' 'yea, but then when u call the internet went off...' there was silence coz i remember i was sleepy in my dreamt and being blurred like when u are really sleepy. (weird huh.. i am sleeping but then i can feel like being v sleepy when i am sleeping.. =x *dotz* i was like, hm, since i managed to hear u, i interrupted your game and i din have much to say, so i just end this call. all seems v simple, BUT then i dunno somewhere along the way he said this to me, 'go and find someone better' (hm... before bfast i still remember so clear that it shock me and i can't sleep, but after bfast i forgot -.-)

Then, tis is absurd... i vaguely remember that i was somewhere on a ship, saw friends from AU, and we were talking about coursework / exam? THEN..... _._ i dreamt of 1 character from bleach (the pink hair girl) and the main character from D'grey man, both in shimigami clothes, and trying to 'rescue' their friend - a girl, who dun wan to go back... blocked by the former captain... (PS> i din watch anime for long time le...)

Wad these means? it means I really really mish him, i am stress about exam, and i am totally messed up. -.-" that girl who do not wish to return, could be my subconscious... myself.

Their stories....

2007-12-29T08:50:00.000+08:00

is a happy ending. so far. i am really happy and cheer up reading it. There is love.

At the same time i was reminded that... how pathetic i am for this year's christmas. yea.. once in a life time quietest christmas nite ever, where i sulked and he rotted with friend around him. Christmas was not meant to be like that yea? we did had a good time last year in hk.... i did put in effort to make him 'feel' for christmas... but i guess like bear say: we guys can't do things like having u in his arm.

He is just. SIAN. a big word already stamped on his forehead.

me too! just that i din put a face - coz there was no one around! so my strings of pearls fell.

Jason (friend from GUSS) told me that i am not alone, coz He who is above is always there and know everything. [one gd friend to have - wad he say did comfort me abit]

but i like to self indulge...

Ramiro and a few more talked to me on Christmas nite as well. Hope his father is okey.
Rachael was sick. well its the weather.

A few more, like James? and Star i think... oh well i did really sound pathetic and sad on my nic. Coz its just the time that u should tell the world u are not happy.

Other than typing on the com chatting with the aboves... The only people that i did open my mouth to was my family. I was brighten up for a while... but its depressing not to hear from you. Its just depressing to know that we are both sianned and sad but no one bothers to do sth. So i was the one who turned the table.

as usual.

And i start to think. And i start to blog. Coz i have no one to tok to.

Thinking that it was not as bad when i was in adelaide. and the difference could be due to time, which was overcame. but wad more was that we din webcam for 3+ months.

I guess i am fading. fading as sunshine and rain. He felt it was like 3 different persons that he was talking to when he see my pic, chat on msn and voice chat on yahoo. The touch is lost.
bad connection.

oh well, i might be overemphazing things again am i? it's really not that bad... really....

At least, i know when i see the watch. Must sth be done then!?

digging

2007-12-29T06:34:00.000+08:00

Digging out the past do no gd to anyone... but i dunno why i am jsut such a kpo person trying to sabotage my coming exam. This is shit... =.= screwed myself a thousand times but i guess mental and emotional distributance are the killers. dun get me wrong. i am not gg insane.. just that i have uncovered things that was meant to be 6 feet under

This is irritating like a fly.

Honestly come to think about it, its no biggie, its no biggie... can't i just dun be such a narrow person and be abit more forgiving or rather, understanding? its really nth wrong seriously. may be its my personality... lao mao bin again, having high expectation, being a perfectionist, thus? not allowing mistakes and 'wrong' doing of others. i dunno if any of you, my friends feel this way: if i measured u with my own standard. but i guess everyone would have done so. just that i am competitive in nature, and thinking everything is a competition in this world.

Recently someone asked me wad's my horoscope. well. it ain't obvious to some, but i jolly well know myself inside out. thinking about it. I think i know why i an so interested in digging that, yet can't take it when the results are sour. jealousy is always the cause. reading life stories are like keeping me in touch with humanity. Its ugly. Its sadist. Foul plays is the way and survival of the fittest is the rule. But somehow when i read these stories, i do feel, i sympathies with the person. And i do jealous of wad i not have. For many, people would envy my life too. Its sensible and logical, because none of us are perfect. honestly, its more addictive than drama, the more i read, the more i actually wan to know the person. Or rather, it IS a drama of its own kind. Her drama, his drama, my drama... we are all under the spotlight in the the central stage of life. I am an actor. I act according to social rules, being politcally correct and modest. Am i cunning or being smart. But i do not wear a facade in front of my friends and family... that's why there are frictions and quarrals... its humane.

How true it is!

So i am being humane and just in my own way. but would this actually make me feel better?

This is worth a ponder.

my very own 3 course christmas dinner

2007-12-26T07:47:00.000+08:00

yup... being alone at home. so i did something to cheer myself up. FOOD!! i love food. love food love food love food *bite dythe*... lol yesh i know we were both unhappy. both sianned abit being too far apart... i hate that too, as time goes by, it just getting like a pain in the ass... But dun worry, i will be graduating next year.. muahahahahah u noob! hahahahaha.

really hope to see u soon... i will do sth about that stupid network here. after exam and reports.. =( okey. back to food that makes me happy.. i dun like to study anymore...

Here is a biomed student doing practs... totally off lab standard..... no gloves!!!! handling biohazard!!!

The chicken flour and egg, tree will know wad this means... *yum!*

Step 1: deep frying next they ere sunbathing in the oven...

capsicum joined in the fun... lol i love them...

i cooked carrots too! the way they taste like in restaurant ... Hee...

Happy van...
Starter!

Food together

makan makan!!!!

half time entertainment... FIREWORKS!!

A light dessert before i start to make the real thing.. lol Christmas cake!!! (honestly by then i am already full... coz main course eat too much =x the chicken is simply nice. Oishi!!!!)

Christmas party

2007-12-25T17:22:00.000+08:00

well, coz we are a group of people in glasgow has nth better to do. literally. so we have a mini party at Yoji's function room =) (met Yoji only like 2 or 3 days ago... a friend of Star... )

4 japanese guys, 1 from china and me... 6 altogether - i am the only undergrad... it was alright. of coz nth comparable to that of Adelaide's. its Christmas today! i... better start mugging after this.

Just got a msg from Chris, yea, i guess i am the most pathetic exchange student in glasgow. This sux coz i am an exchange. i feel sux. i can't cheer up. not at all. anyway dun let my mood spoil the pics here =)

As usual, i will bake a cake for an event =) *fast and cheap*

looks yummy? it actually tasted really gd like hm... choc toffee that kind of texture =D

Food! lol... quite fattening actually, but at least there was turkey. I ate turkey for the first time in my life!!!

Yoshi (far) & Yoji (near)

The guys... haha everyone is waiting for me to finish taking the pic before they tuck in. lol

Then Star and Yoji came to my place for a chat til like 15 to 1... it was a late nite again... =.= It was a gd nite chilling out... with a TV and friends.. lol Thankyou for organising and sharing experience =)

It's fate

2007-12-24T23:48:00.000+08:00

It's fated that this year i will have no present and no gg out with friends on Christmas day itself. I still can't get over the fact that i am stuck here and THE FACT THAT MY ANOTHER CLASSMATE INIVITED ME TO HER HOME down south LIKE YESTERDAY and she now din reply my text again. Called no reply. i dunno if i should really take a train up and meet her. seriously. WHY ARE THEY SO LAST MINUTE! i din see the text til today like just now when i went out to get sth in tesco. i gave up hope when she din txt or call me for half a month and the other classmate told me that her parents dun wan outsider to join in. ...

this is just. fate.

no one bothers. even ah dear got friends to pei him. just asking me what am i gg to do later then zao liao. very gd sia. i am really sad.

ai. i should just stop thinking about its christmas... take it as one of the normal day and exam is at the end waiting for me... psycho myself...

exam exam exam!!!! arhhhh study lah van!!!!

Chirstmas dinner

2007-12-24T20:32:00.000+08:00

yesterday nite on the way walking out to Byres road... i keep looking into people's flat. I can't help it because every single flat has A Christmas Tree by their window. The more i look, the more lonely i feel. I should have gotten a tree as well! at least that would make it look more like christmas ....

the dinner was excellent! taken pic of the appi and dessert but forgot about the main course only after i finished eating... too gd already...

Goose leg with cranberry sth... lol

Their famous sticky toffee pudding!!! VvVVVV nice!

main course i order the roast chicken breast... yea.. very nice... really vvv nice... of coz the bill is erm... but once in a while esp when i am like overseas not many friends staying back and the point is I AM ON EXCHANGE!!! come on.. i am sure my family today would be gg out to eat also lo.. tho may be not like wad i eat. but i think its okey lah... i dun have Chinese new year celebration for a few years also. So it was really gd to have arranged a dinner with James and Jean (from sing soc here) =) nice dinner and evening. Thanks for your accompany! No. 16!! =D

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oh talking about Christmas, at first i tot i would be able to experience very special for an exchange to have... my classmate did invite me to celebrate Christmas with her family. I was overjoyed and never tot that my dream would come true. of coz it was a let down. if not i won't be here blogging. lol.

It was a major let down coz after knowing that I would be back for some family matters, she just keep telling me to go home and saying that i would embarrass her if I go to her place coz her family is "bad"? i was like, why would there people saying their family is bad?! the word she say sometimes made me feel terrible; "it's a shame that u can't celebrate it with you family", "it's a shame ....." . she may be just overconcerned and worrying and for her, unlike most of us my friends, has not been leaving her family or country like we do.. of coz i can understand her feeling. I was touched, at first, but irritated afterwards. I felt like she is just telling me to scram home. That's how i feel. after a while i feel that she dun really meant wad she say. of coz I wouldn't want to think bad about her coz she was nice. Just that i really dun feel gd about it.

And hearing that my housemate did invite me to London, she say: why dun u go somewhere else better... honestly i remember she did say that line. Go somewhere else huh...

She was just totally getting on my nerves. of coz i would sad and irritated. Well, guess we just have to make do with the cultural difference and be understanding... Let phase it this way: she has not seen the world enough... so do i. JUST that, let me be clear, i am a easy to tok to person, if u dun wan me to come just say str to my face. dun give me lame excuses and kacau me once in a while to tell me things that are not related and trying to make me feel that i am the bad guy. I am not stupid. coz that's really mean and torturous.

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hm feeling slightly better? yea the dinner last nite did it make better, but still i can't help to think that this year i am having christmas with friends that i met only once or twice. amazing, yet, weird. i guess times like this will bind people together. This is the second christmas with friends only. But the dinner was much better then a few year's back of coz... dunno about tonite's party... the food should be .. like that lo.. ha.. nvm lah. i will update again.

A Christmas without snow, tree and present... oh and turkey. somehow it wasn't within my expectation.

back in time

2007-12-24T09:11:00.000+08:00

just before i sleep tonite, i wan to post up some personal pic that when i see they reminded me of the good old times, some time funny, but some of them stirred feelings. .. well may be because this christmas is so lonely for me... can't help looking back in time...

Back in 2005 when we were still both year2s... lol we looked toot! erh not much change me for lah... hahah but we really looked kiddo

This one we looked slightly better. After A level, went running about all over Singapore before weekim be gone and lost in the army and me flying off to Aussieland... well actually back then i dun even have a uni to get in... 2005 dec. ERh. wait, i think both pic was taken the same period of time! lol... blur liao +.+"

This one was taken when my best buddy sotong - okey- yann yoong at her balcony for drying clothes... first year of uni in adelaide. back then, things were simple, pure and good fun. I miss you girl. it was really nice knowing u. from the bottom of my heart. (okey even know i appeared really mean to u... but i am really sorry for that lah girl) >.<~ Sorry!

This was my first birthday overseas without family, but i have made friends! its just a short one month there were actually people planning for my birthday celebration! looking back on this which everyone else did for me. I am really gratefully to have know u all. To have come to adelaide and study.

This, was my secret present final product! take me like 3 months lol coz i have no time to do it in one shot... 365 hearts, 10 langage for the special one. oh and a very tough letter written in fan ti chinese. lol. he hates it.

Barossa valley. My love for wine. and love was in the air huh... lol ... that was april. we the bunch of good friends, me garrick, yann yoong and yeap shen, plus my kawaii housemate sachiko! Gd food, gd wine, gd scenary & gd friends!

Dinner parties!!!! where i cooked like their favourite sweet & source pork, and they made me Taco! I miss mel and jess and mel from yy's house lol.. i know, this is confusing. hahaha. love cooking =)

This , was alot alot alot of dumplings for mulit-culture day. Me and sotong did it. well first time so i did more but subsequently she picked up the skills as well. ERh that was this photo that i really looked like i was 3 months pregant while cooking but that's my TUMMY!.. decided not to put up. =x i cooked til drop dead ar.

<- Port Adelaide

Okey, these ones are really funny pics.. sorry garlic, i happened to see ur hair in my album and it did make me laugh and decided to share to joy. dun worry me and shujun pei ni. lol XD

Yan Dao - shuai gei lai le!!! this is our Angel of the Year, Yeap shen! Photo taken by dunno who, but photoshopped by bee! any girl interested? =p

Japan has sakara, we have erh, purple trees! whole street of them! forgot the name of the plant but yea some one told me before erh.. jack sth... lol if u know please tell me okey.. so LHS we have real flowers for spring, RHS we have flowers sent from tropical country... Sunflower! i like sunflower coz it give u the feeling of happiness... somehow that's wad i think. lol. tho it was not the flower that i like since young. but really appreciate ur effort! it was a surprise and stress relief! =D *hugz*

lol okey, LHS is my first party, actually met for sotong birthday de,, the she smart smart go and bake a cake, which she was not meant to lah.... but nvm it was gd fun still. I entertained her by wearing wad u see.. okey lah... haix.. RHS. me & phy! missing u girl... it was really gd to get out after exam and have buffet and dessert! last time was elephant walk right... now i guess our new favourite would be chocolate bean... i am missing it here!

this was the season of fall. everyone is leaving after a year being such a family for each other. I was kinda sad, the sadness swelled up and it was translated into "skylight".

okey i guess that's all for today, i was suppose to sleep like 2 hours ago. now 2.15am! siao .. my dark rings.. ARGGGGGGH @.@ poor van. okey friends. hope u enjoy the pic and dun mind me putting them up. MERRY CHRISTMAS! its the SILENT NITE... lol... *silence*

Van the traveller ...

2007-12-20T01:34:00.000+08:00

finally i can call myself a traveller lol... been to sooooo many places within this 3 months... honestly u wont believe, i am like a part time student full time traveller. lol Yesh.. which means i din even study and skipped more lectures and sleep thru more then ever... seriously, this is 3rd year, i am so screwed....

well, let me list the places i have been to then:

::September::
-glasgow bus tour and i think i fall asleep? no impression of that...
-stiring castle & distillary [first castle of my life]
-Loch Lomond [beautiful day]
-Edinburgh [Scotland's captial! - very nice place]

::October::
-Oban & Isle of Mull [ city by the bay & 3 more castles]
-Dundee & St. Andrew [nice icecream in st andrew!]

::November::
-Isle of skye [the MUST GO in SCOTLAND!]

::December::
-LONDON [my very first self-planned and self-directed tour] great experience that i need. Met up with lotsa friends and made friends through the process. BUT i still LOVE SCOTLAND MOST!!!! Scotland roX! haha okey, if u are english / irish dun throw stone to me... blame it to my limited financal support. For i have no money to travel to your country as much.

::More place of interest::

=England=
-Manchester (visit leslie)
-York
-Bath
-Straford upon avon
(3 out of 4 i have been there once, but that was so rush... and i lost all my photos during that lit trip coz my stupid teacher... complained my cam loud ... so sad case... anway so i told myself if will ever go to the UK again i will and I WILL take those pics again... )

=Wales=
-Swansea (visit yuen ling)

=Northern Ireland=
(have no idea yet actually, should consult my classmate Chris)

=Ireland=
-Dublin

=Western Europe=
-Prague (visit Melissa!)
-Italy (i love their food sooo much)
-Spain (visit Ramiro! My fellow biomedic!)
-Greece (i heard that its just one beautiful scenic place... oh man~)
-Rome (i love their history, as much as shakespear, wordworths of england & Tsar of Former Sovient union)
-Amsterdam! (I wan to see wildmills)
-Germany (Food & Beer!)
-France (honestly, not much feeling for it yet.. its just famous and near to uk - v stupid if i dun go)
-Vennia (i missed the choir trip =( )

Hmh any place i misshed? can tell me i will try to plan and add up everything... coz have to start planning for next year to get ultra cheap tix =D

::LATEST PLAN::

since all my classmates here bunksie me, (wad to say... different culture wor) the following is wad i can do:

-Go out on the street of Glasgow & Edinburgh for their chirstmas market
-Stay home for christmas (erh have to contact some neighbour for dinner... if not really pathetic)
-Newyear, apparently got someone organising a trip to North Ayrshire! which i wanted to go down south of glasgow anyway... the price is cheap for 3 days- 50 pounds for transports, food and accom! 3 nites some more... contemplating to go or not... go liao sure screw exam, dun go ,.... a bit sian... dunno lah... *headache*

Rest for my cold from London first... just back for 1 day from that 7 days london trip...
Here, I wan to thanks all my friends and people to I have meet in london thru this 7 days. Thankyou for hosting me and bring me around, bring me for dinner and having all the fun that i would not have if i din have you guys! Great fun and I am really grateful to have you. If anyone come up to glasgow, find me yea =)

signing off here =)
Van

In the name of education, i travel.

Let me be your eyes to see the world, bringing u through a life time of wildest imaginations.

Milkshake, Tea or Me

2007-09-03T11:35:00.000+08:00

Milkshake

After chatting with Brian, he recommended me with a better recipe for milkshake.

Use fresh cream instead of ice-cream or yogurt if u are conscious of your weight. Add plenty of milk. Same old procedure and with good fresh strawberries or any other fruits that you wish to blend. Wala~ good milkshake is coming in your way.

End product of this recipe should be smooth and less thick as the previous one. Well another side of milkshake =)

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Ginger Tea (serves hot)

Healthy and delicious tea with simple recipe.

Cut the ginger into pieces and throw it into boiling water to boil for 10-15 mins (hm.. if i'm not wrong... i guess u may boil to 30 mins for greater taste).

With the ginger water, now u can make some tea! (dun try to use chinese tea leaves for the tea... lipton will do.)

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Peach Tea (serves cold)

Boil the peach to get peach water and make tea with lipton tea bags.

Chill the tea with some peach in the jug.

Drink it when u feel extremely hot and stuff up =s it frees you from the hot day =)

Strawberry Milkshake

2007-08-12T01:34:00.001+08:00

Let me teach you how to make a SIMPLE and DELICIOUS strawberries milkshake to cure your hunger :D

Step 1: get some fresh and nice strawberries. Ensure they are dark red but not to rotting, looking firm would be good. And no white heads please =P

This is the critical step because the taste of the milkshake is >50% dependent on the fruit.

Step 2: wash the berries clean and cut them into halves would be best.

But I was too lazy to cut them this time round. So. I throw all of them in as u can see. Well, This is not really good for the milkshake because it would take longer time for it to be grinded, thus, heating up the entire glass of milkshake. Affecting its thickness and creamy-ness.

Step 3: Be VERY GENEROUS with the vanilla ice-cream. I got a tub of 1L, and I used about half a tub to make 4 cups of milkshake.

No compromise!

Step 3: Add some milk (Some, NOT alot) enough to cover the base to about 1-2 cm, just to make it more drinkable

Tada!

Step 4: Close the lid of the blender tightly and switch it to max for spinning speed for about 10-20 sec (there about i guess depending how small pieces the strawberries are...) just not too long... And stop the blender when u see the pink colour has been evened out.

Step 5: get the milkshake into ur mugs.

Enjoy!

PS> This is definitely cheaper then u get it from the foodcourt where u dun even see ur strawberries seeds in ur drink. ;)

The cooking SpreE

2007-08-12T01:33:00.002+08:00

Have not been cooking for sometimes since I left Adelaide. So i have decided to make dinner for my family =D *showing off my skills*

Proudly presented to u the Homemade meat balls spaghetti in mushroom-tomato source, brought to you by Van and powered by my mom and weekim. lol. got the idea from discovery travel and living and decided to try out with my modified version. So dun say i never cook ar...

Doesn't that look good to you? Oh, come on...

After the even distribution of meat balls to 4, theses are the "temperary" leftovers... 7 meatballs out of 29... and not even one after my brother has cleared his plate. The meat balls turn out better then expected =D It was tender and the taste was just nice. Bravo!

Recall..

2007-07-08T18:05:00.000+08:00

about one month plus ago... that was when i just had my craziest time.. continued from the may 11th post.. that was only the first half of the madley... straight after the prac B it was C and then biochem test and tutorials as usual.

2 days to change the entire essay structures and re-research for relevant articles

2 days to draft the entire essay

5 days to really write the essay

van was running on low fuel not because she has no $ or food, its time ...

Heng that the nite (weds) which this eassy was due... 12midnite, there was a bbq at village. some of us just went to chiong the saucsage... free dinner and drinks of the nite.. save me from hunger and cold.

Down to 5 hours to due time, all rushed furiously to edit and write our essays.. Prac-Cer has done us proud.. through all the hardship.. lol

Yeapshen submitted his first, Garrick pawned Prac C's head for extra 200+ gold, I submitted it at 11:59:09 >.<>

Next biochem test.

we actaully have about 5 days to study for the test which covers everything until where we were taught. But i din study, until like 3 days before the test. Coz we celebrated Garrick's belated bday on friday.

That party itself was amazing. But the amusement comes from Ekasith's cooking skill and his hospitabilities to the b'day boy and of coz his gf. ha ... they were the king and queen of the nite. too bad i still dun have the pics of those nicely decorated food.

But that was really a good nite!

Test was okey. But it reflected my low self-confidence.

Proceeding to the last part of the madley. REal madness and insanity.

tuesday after the week of biochemt test was due date for Prac b report (5pm) and Prac C poster (12noon)

Chionged from monday morning til tuesday: submitted poster then went prac B for 4 + hours - fishing and handup my report. Went home waited for tree to cook curry together.. After dinner was already 9.. sleep around 10pm wake 8am on wednesday morning....THEN i realised that the 10 mins presentation is not for crapping...

2 hours before the presentation, garrick was in Mayo Cafe, reading and memorising his essay and trying to present to me.. I was trying hard to expend my 1 line ans... Yiying and phy then came ... 30 mins to it, i started babbling wadever i wrote and i knew from memory...

And that was my presentation. with a little insanity. i guess i did sound like a mad scientist afterall.

Well, so it was done and all of us cursed Prac C... stupid prac C..

we work so hard for it... it dragged our average prac marks down a grade =(

Well. glad that its over! over over over...

awaiting for the next round in September - the real challegne

to dyt

2007-05-11T14:17:00.000+08:00

ha... give me 3 good reasons why i should not put it up...

Else

give me another entertainment =D

*ruff*

daily life

2007-05-11T13:53:00.000+08:00

life? uni got no life lah.... 2nd year =.= *head spinning*

Prac A & B had just passed so is my insomeia... may be coz "lesser" load so "lesser" stress.
There came prac C...

my structure was totally off last week as thomas pointed out...
have been working on the structure since tuesday? then weds and thursday, now TADA finally, friday and it is up!

sort of okey... i woke this morning thinking of it... and it turns out to have some link and idea for a pausible structure. now i have gotta get down to it.. fix up my lousy intro that i created last nite in a half sianned dieded state.... really bad yesterday

5 hours str of lectures... powerpacked... And no good food too
I miss my cooking =p... but seriously... have been eating bread for breakfast lunch dinner.... sian

Today 4 hour str and it was not soo bad... since i was over with pracA and watched a super sweet movie (3rd time last nite) i have been able to get back my normal sleep and even more then that.... *whew* 5 days down to pracC due date... i hope i can do a good job.

recently, grades din seesm that good... getting weird outcomes from wad i put in... this seems familiar to me and way to familiar and scare me from going back to wad it happened... in jc...
alright. face it. I am stress. totally stressed out during the hols too. so stress that it is inhibiting my usual achievements. well may be have to face it too, that i am not that smart afterall... that "little" hardwork

anyway,... i have learnt

oh have been eating alot more lately, all carbo man... they are all going to become fats if i dun use them fast enough within 24h... haha just had bichem tut again...

Recently i have been flopping my tuts... feeling really bad abt it but i can't do anything unti this 75% worth essay is done... *gosh i feel like eating another mee now... should i?*

I started eating apples to cut down my snack intake.. ha... no it din really help anyway.. hungry all the time
So every 2 hours lecture i feed myself with sth =D

all about food.. okey... i think that;s all for today.. as u can see my brain is in a mess .... so... i have to... drink more water and flush out all the rubbish then i can start work =)

gona wash my dishes...tata

*i am all green today =D*

I can't sleep....

2007-04-28T23:32:00.000+08:00

because i am such a worrier... at least that's how i think that why i couldn't sleep even when i tried my best to...

for the past few nites, i slept late. with gastric attacks every nite ... starting from the moment i am on bed.... =.= *PAIN!* finally now have to add supper to prevent the occurance

eyes tured and dry, toothache... they may be linked...

psychological factors... work of coz... Prac A lac operon, Prac A report, Prac C report, micro lit review, genetic tut, biochem tut... and that stupid test that i did on monday must have huanted me til now.. I only get some good sleep on monday nite coz i was totally exhausted from being hyperactive after the test - in order to vent my saddness.

Not seeing my dear did have huge impact on my daily routine. =( he was sick today.... 2 msgs from him in the morning and that's is... msged him quite some times and no reply.. i started to get worried... worry that he could be hospitalised because wad he tot to be indigestion could be worst..... he keep exercising after meals... that habit really get on my nerves...

and my thumb area is in pain... coz i chopped too much and used too much strength on cooking the mince pork for my fried rice today... cooking 4 hours... not only rice but dumplings also lah
haix... not very productive day... things are getting piled up.

I was on bed since 9:50
trying very hard to fall a sleep
but my mom called me at 1130 COZ she was bored without her usual tv show! (brother exam starting....) wake me up from my TRY...call me liao then say oh u go back to sleep ba.. i was like WAHLAO! so until now i still awake... coz after that i got gastric again. =(

just had 2 custard biskit to save my stomach... and camomile tea to try to get me to lala-land. but i guess kim's voice could be the best remedy... haix... bear with it... the up and downs of life..

I just really really wan to sleep
i know that i can't function well if i am in this half sleep-wake state...
but seriously, wad should i do! wad could i do!.. not that i dun wan to sleep! ARGGGGGH

oh... today, false fire alarm twice & it was the 3rd day of rain... a saturday too, which was chinfatt's bday (happie bday dude).. now a sunday...

i am gg back to my sleeping business...
hope i would fall asleep soon, get some qaulity sleep & wake early and refresh....PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!!! >.<

nite everyone.

Crabbing - our club welcomes the crabbies

2007-04-12T14:45:00.004+08:00

Singapore Uni students may go Clubbing to chill out on their weekends, students in Adelaide also have their way of nite life at the beach. And we Chill Out literally.

Venue: Glenlg

Time: when its HIGH tide

Tools: nets (the real thing, not the debit card) with string attached, Meat... like those fish and chicken that were stuck in the freezer for half a year before they were found by the careless buyer.

Some water and snack or dinner if u dun intend to spend a single dollar at the restaurants there... recommended to eat seafood while waiting for your crabbie to climb in. =P

Bring a stool to prevent aching legs if yours are the weak ones.

Everyone knows how to club, just go there get a drink and shake their butt, but not everyone knows how to crab when u throw them the net... well but it's not as difficult as it seems.

Demostration by our Aluminium Chef: Chin Fatt

First get prepare the meat, defrozed and tied them to the bottom of the net with some fishing string. Make sure u secure the meat tight enough so that it won't go free to those hungry crabbies crawing underneath.

Next, throw the net as far as you can from the jetty. Just think of throwing away a giant frisbee with stinko fish and chicken meat clinging onto it. It gets kinda heavy and beware of cuts on your hand by this sher force.

Wait for about 30 mins before pulling up the net from the sea bottom. Remember you must pull the net quick and fast, else the crabbies could escape before the net surface! *guys who will to train some muscle and show off to girls fit the job best!*

If u wait patiently with a bit of luck that day, you should have something like this in the net:

The fishermen basket (raw version) : fish, chicken wing and fillet & 2 crabs *oops* chicken is kinda out of place.
Taking out your prey is not easy. They are armed and may attack anytime to get back at you for distrubing their meals.

Hold them either on the tummy, else, their front pair of legs and throw them into a bucket of sea water.

First crabbie of the day. Crabbies must be longer then 11cm for fishing. If you get anything smaller then that, you have to throw it back into the sea...

Crabbing with people who share same passion (all the old uncles or students [us] who are looking for cheap way for expensive seafood) and tourists (who keep hopping from bucket to bucket to check out the biggest crab of the day) at the jetty is really a good way to chill out on the weekends.

My Love Potions

2007-04-11T17:04:00.000+08:00

These are the NEW types of tim tams that they are selling in supermarkets in Adelaide... I bet ( and hope) that it is not out in Singapore, at least not so soon... (so that i can buy back as a present =p)

They were only $1.88 i think, hm... bought from woolies??? hm.... wadever

*yum*

the Ad

2007-04-08T00:03:00.000+08:00

i think i should write to the milk company about me promoting their products and get Ad fees from them... lol...

Milk-a-holic

2007-03-24T14:26:00.002+08:00

Being a milk-a-holic (and one of those asians that have NO lactose intolerance =p *sorry tree and jeremy* I do love milk alot... ) and feel that i should dedicate this post to intro u the milk that i have always been fascinated with and keep buying in bulk... *lol... i think u guys seeing this will laugh the hell out - for those who know HOW i go crazy with them*

okok...

Introducing my first four candidates for most popular milk (according to my chart of coz):

As u can see from this pic, from left:

-Skim milk with 0.1 of Fats
-SMART milk with high Ca & reduced fats
-PURE milk! 100% pure! *no bones about it*
-Point 1 milk a.k.a. 0.1% milk but this one is high Ca de...

I usually dun buy so many type, only get the PURE milk when it is around 1 buck / litre, but this time round woolies on sale and all four of them are only 0.99 cents! that's why....

And i go crazy with this brand of milk because the packeting is just -CUTE-!
(those that who see me showing them will know wad i mean.... )

Pluspoint, they are UHT... so i can buy and keep dun nid every week go out and hunt for cheap ones... (even coles brand - the low qaulity one sell even more ex then this one lo! okey may be i am the only one got research on this kind of thing... BUT... well, of coz fresh milk is better and reasonably cheap... UHT is still the cheapest... so... haha)

Experimental observation:

-Skim milk: it's sorta diluted and not as creamy as the PURE one... erh, i personally would rank it number 5 coz it is just reduced fats...

-SMART Milk! number one milk for the current chart (actually smart PLUS is even better, but i dun have the pic with me... coz i din buy... ex lah... )It is creamy and nice! Sweet! + Drink liao smarter one leh... =p I am the living prove! lol... *kidding*

*SMART huhh*

-PURE milk! 100% i really dun find the diff of this from fresh milk, except fresh one are more perishable... the perish when u drink them and when u dun drink them... either way they perish... lol. Ranking: number 2

-Point One milk: hm... it is actually quite the same as the skim milk, just that may be because is high Ca, then it tastes a bit sweeter then the skim one. It is equally watery as the skim one relative to the 100% pure milk (not as creamy), BUT! It is definitely heaps better then those skim or semi-skim milk from coles brand! HEAPS BETA! it is being tried and proven by me. take my word friends. Ranking: number 4
So where is the number 3 right... hm... there it comes...

Tada! Semi-skim milk aka 2% milk (meaning there is only 2% of fats): my number 3 says "great creamy taste!" is the first thing that caught my eye and make me want to buy. This one is the 2 litre version of the same brand of milk. Bought it when it was 2 bucks for 2 litres.... okey lah... but open liao have to finish within 1 week lo... It is NOT as creamy as it says lah... not comparable to PURE one... but definitely creamier then skim and point 1 milk... it is sorta in the middle range... dunno wad to say about lah... -.- just ... milk lo... not as sweet as the high Ca one i guess... *sorry the typist abit tired ar*

Oh from micorbiology lecture, we were told that UHT (ultra high temperature) and HTST (high temperature short term) milk usually give this yellowish colour and those (probably not as good brand) would give you solid at the bottom, that's why usually there is this line "Shake before opening" printed on the packeting... This colour is due to the bacterial enzymes that were present during the processing and was not been able to removed by the mechine; the yellow solid is the product of enzyme actions in the milk after packeting.

Well, my observation is that, for the brand that i am drinking, the milk is relatively white... milky white... at least is not like that yellow yellowish... so i find that this is a good one to buy! (haha... now chinfatt is joining my gang too... lol)

Conclusion:

For creamy taste: the more fats in it the better (just like cheese and butter... fats make u feel great and ur blood milky =p) Explanation? chylomicrons formation after fats digestion.... refer to ur biochem text if u have one... (SEE! this is wad that stupid test make us think about!)

For Sweetness in the white: go for high Ca milk, apparently i think Ca give a sweet taste... ( I have tried many types of milk even back in singapore... may be next time should do a write up on that also... i tried different brands one... there is a different between UHT milk) hoho.

However,

Forgot from who i heard, that "High Ca low Fat milk is actually NOT good for health and it reduce Ca intake by ur body"... erm... is it? may be i should go check it up with Lynn Roger... our biochem lecturer, apparently my tutor as well.

Haha... this is almost the end of this review... and is going to be 2am again!!! argzhhh why am i always sleeping so late even this is a hol... (i am typing this in april by the way... din have time to do it during my bday... so... yea... )

Lastly, I would quote wad jeremy always says to me "go buy a cow lah!"

I would! one day....

Yet another post...i like

2007-03-16T20:58:00.000+08:00

Thursday, February 09, 2006

See you soon

When I look into your eyes, I don't know what to say.
Words they just fail me, I'm drowning in your gaze.
When we touched, it was a moment out of time.
Crystallizing in my memory, forever that is mine.
Precious little to hold on to, now your going away.
Three long years 'till we meet again, I will count the days.
You're still someone special, still someone dear.
But now its just in another way.
Old scars hurt but do not bleed, they testify to my old deeds.Bye

Bye! Take care over there! =)

yet another art piece from an inspired one. this is touching.

matching...

2007-03-16T20:33:00.000+08:00

dythe is to charise...

shaun is to evonne...

kim chan is to nessa sempai...

duan wei is to yu min...

weekim is to yukman...

lame... lol -.-

Past...

2007-03-13T15:57:00.000+08:00

Just happend to browse one of my friend's blog and found this long lost thing that i have cherished. He has the talent; pick yourself up and pull it together. May you see the world that you live, and the reason for god to put us in this world. I really appreicate your art work =o

Really hope to see you again, sorry for not finding you when i am back last hols.... >.<
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Sunday, February 06, 2005
Poem?

Sitting in an empty room,
She looks up at the stars and she cries.
Left behind by uncaring fates,
Abused by both the love and the lies.
Wond'ring how to make the best of something,
Emptiness reflecting from her eyes.

When she's with him, she is passion.
When she's with him, she's alive.
When she's with him, she's on fire; Burning bright...

But now he's left her for someone new.
Her heart is braking; doesn't know what to do.
Everyone tells her it's ok, He didn't deserve her anyway.
But none of those words makes her feel alright,
They cannot heal her shattered heart tonight.
It's tearing at her in the dark,
She's choking in the tears and pain from the past.

When she's with him, she is passion.
When she's with him, she's alive.
When she's with him, she's on fire; Burning bright...

So now it's over, there's nothing new;
Nothing left which she can salvage or do.
Memories accompany her, clouding up whatevers left behind.
All she knows is that once upon, once upon a time...

When she's with him, she is passion.
When she's with him, she's alive.
When she's with him, she's on fire; Burning bright...

Sitting alone the warmth is gone but now she has the cold, calm night.

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I was suddenly inspired by something someone told me.Maybe I will turn it into a song?I will be Vannishing now.
Posted at 10:38 pm by Sorreah

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sometimes things have to be reminded again....
and talents are not to be wasted.
think, and think again.

on a move again

2007-02-17T11:51:00.000+08:00

things are happening abit too fast and i din really have time to pen my thoughts down. Here i am going off to Thailand for a four days short trip with my family. (kinda family routine every year). Anyway, happie chinese new year to all for those who are seeing my blog and for those who are going back to adelaide like me soon. For all those NSF, take good care of yourself and "enjoy" your slacking time in NS while you can.

Really so glad to recieve emails from some of you and heard that my jc classmate Ryan is coming over for a short trip in adelaide. Cool huh. It's really nice to have friends over visiting you when you are alone overseas, you know.

Take care and all the best for all of you. Have a safe journey for all those travelling!! (including me too)

will be back soon with more updates and posts... feel free to tag at my "barking place" yea?

tata!

changes

2007-02-12T13:51:00.000+08:00

are good, but could be bad... i am an adventureous person, thus, open to any ideas ... So far, i guess there are tremandous improvement... =D *pat on dythe* *oopz* not mend for you to know... Yea, but let it be natural that would be betta, sudden change can make everything artifical, and changes only when u know i am leaving again... might be little too late.

BUT I have really enjoyed myself these days, thanks for bringing me around, feeding me good food and chilling out with me *freezing* on the tower. The hammering at toy"R"us, MaltiserTime and... u blushing like red bright bulb everything when i guessed correctly .... =x Great memories and is something to be remember of. That's why i am blogging it.

Remember, you are NOT a bad doggie okey... just a little careless sometimes okey =p ai se te ru

Honestly, I wonder when will u realise that I have been editing blog and blogging... knowing that you must have thought I never touch my blog. careless? may be u are just buzy... lol... buzy with me. optimistic point of view.

N e W y E a R e S o L u t I o N 07

2007-02-07T00:29:00.000+08:00

never had a resolution ever in my life, so think of typing out one so that i can change for the better. I am open to ideas. But I lead my life. *tsk*

sleep earlier and MORE (8-9 hours / day)
apprepicate life around MORE
think before speak - "control" is the word
KCSKCSKCSKCSKCS need to be Ctrl-Alt-Del
be neater - that's like a mission impossible
be on time (dythe, be on time okey!!! *knock*)
TRY not to skip too many lecture - meaning that i will still skip IF necessary (ironic huh)
write to my friends more often
exerise more (once a week) and often (did only jog TWICE last year)

This is quite a handful already... i would stop here for this year. Hope everything would be lots and lots better for me after CNY!!!! The pure suayness has been around for like a month... *shake shake shake that off!* Good luck and all the best for everyone - especially me this year.

God Bless

think think think ding!

2007-02-05T15:45:00.000+08:00

have been thinking quite alot recently... kinda lost the habit for like a year... used to think quite a lot but it din seems to help huh did it? Well, I am not the thinker thinker, but as least to sort out of my buzy life, things that have lost in the midst of life.

Search. And regain.

Think.

This year...

2007-02-02T00:37:00.000+08:00

doesn't seems to be a good year to me. It's gona be rough, i got pushed onto the road by this old man on skate on the very first day of this year. *my palm still pain even til now* the impact was really great. I actually flown about 30 cm off where i was (PS> I was on skate too, but stationary.) On the same day after class cycling to changyi, i was chawta and lost my watch on the way home - my 10 years old watch, with me since my primary 6th birthday. Gone.

Next up, I felt wasted at home, being the good doggie waiting for someone to play with when they are free. Like who will be free rite. Just wasted and i dun like the feeling of being a taxi. That's really not good coz i can't drive and i have NO drive.

So finally after so desperate request to friends about jobs, phy lent a helping hand; introduced me to a bookshop for part time work. It is sort of better. somehow, I felt that at least i am learning and won't be nagged at by my mom that i am doing nothing - besides when i am doing housechorse she shuts... else... if i am jus waiting to go out... u know...

Then, it was just two days ago, someone just broke one of my favour bottle of stars. interestingly, there were only 2 pieces of broken glass left on the table, the stars and the rest of the pieces where all gone. Frankly speaking, there could only be one person that is responsible to it, either my mom or my brother. But none said they knew about it, worst, most hated anwser "I don't know!" This is full of crap man.

And now... guess wad... i have just been thinking. Life is a bit boring. People are getting lazy to plan activities and of coz who would want to be the leader rite? The prefect picture seems to lose its colour. Is it me who are not understanding enough? or not giving enough effort? But what about ME? sometimes i do wonder if i am on the right track, board the right ship. i din ask for much, coz i expect things to be done. Come on, we are not kids anymore. Use ur Brain.

Well, all these sounded like coming out from a drama queen? I am no drama queen but i don't deny that i might have been whining too much? or Have i beeen victimising myself? I do get over things, but first i need to voice them out. Coz i am NOT happy. When it's all flushed out, it would be like a clear sky... Sadly, not in Singapore.

Never

2007-01-11T14:34:00.000+08:00

never be on the waiting list
never be on call
never be indecisive
never be too naive
never be too young
never be a domestic goddess
never be a toy
never be a dreamer
never say never

Skylight

2006-11-26T00:20:00.000+08:00

In my little room I type,

I gaze far away;

the peaceful stars of the land shine,

which brings larthagies to my mind.

When the room was bright,

I can only see the sea of light

I was lost and blind

never learn to see the gem of life.

For once, I felt the thirst to see the sky

In darkness I shall stand

lone and alone than ever

yet, the troubled soul was comforted.

Fallen Leaves

2006-11-25T23:33:00.000+08:00

A touch of autumn,
the season to fly.

A kiss of winter,
the reason to cry.

The spirit of summer,
lift the joy of life.

The love of spring,
enpowered our lives.

Time Flies...

2006-11-07T17:50:00.000+08:00

There goes my 1 year of time, my 1 year of life...
I wonder, if there weren't science, there weren't life, there wouldn't be time.

Sometime i wish i could just play back moments of life that i have been thru;
the sour, the sweetness; the spices, the bitterness.

Til we have that technology to travel back in time,
I would have been long forgotten, resting in the arm of mother earth.

To the Rocks!

2006-10-23T17:54:00.000+08:00

To see a world in a grainof sand,

And a heaven in a wild flower,

Hold infinity in the palm of you hand,

And eternity in an hour.

The gain of geology for my first year in uni. Geo Rox man... tho most of the time i stone thru my practs and lectures. lol.. gona miss it... just taken my last pract exam and there comes the final exam for geo this thurs x.X

compare to shakespear's point of view: "You block, you stone, you worth than senseless thing" this is something to ponder.

Injuries report...

2006-09-22T10:38:00.000+08:00

AGain.... =.="

- cut my left hand middle finger when chopping onions... quite a deep cut... cut through the nail into the flesh as well... [1st time in my lift kena from kitchen knife *sob*]

- bruise here and there... at 1st all on the LHS of my body... like Left arms... elbow...etc.. now.. after shifting house bruise also migrate... on right hand and left foot...

- minor burns on hand and fingers... from yesterday 'bbq' at Jeremy's place.... oil keep splashing from the deep fryer and scrotched by the frying pan... *hot*

Hopefully that's all for the rest of the year...

Reporting my Sept Schedule

2006-09-07T16:15:00.000+08:00

have been working on some of those, but still, alot more to come... they are so sadist >.<~

BIOLOGY
- respiratory pract report (due monday, 12th Sept, 3:00:00pm)
- parasite pract reprot (due monday, 3rd Oct, 3:00:00pm)
- bio tut (have to catch up wk5 one)
- bio research project [stem cells] (13th Oct)

CHEMISTRY
- chem pract 6 online prelab qn (15th Sept)
- chem pract 6 qns (15th Sept)
- chem online tut quiz (15th Sept)
- chem tut 7 (wk when sch reopen - after mid term break)
- chem tut 5 (have to catch up)

PSYCHOLOGY
- psychology research report (3rd Oct)
- psychology SDL wk 4, 6 (catch up!!!)

GEOLGOY
- geo pract wk 8 ws! [identification of sedmentary rocks] online (10th Sept)

Up Coming TESTs...
- geology
- biology

faithless love

2006-08-15T08:56:00.000+08:00

Faithless love like a river flows
Raindrops falling like a broken rose
Down inside’ a valley where no body grooms
And the night falls in like a cold dark wind
Faithless love like a river flows

Faithless love, where did I go wrong
Was it telling story like in a heart break song
Where nobody is right or nobody was wrong
Faithless will find you and this misery will find you
Faithless love, where did I go wrong

Well I guess when I am standing
In a whole world of broken dreams, that’s the way I sometimes feel
Every new love never turns out like it seems
It is the feeling comes and goes

Faithless love like a river flows
Raindrops falling on a broken rose
Down inside a valley where nobody grooms
Faithless love hasl find me; put its chilly arms around me

Faithless love, faithless love like a river flows

Song [camomile blend]

QuickGold

2006-08-10T15:14:00.000+08:00

It was Monday nite (I was v sure that it was monday, coz i was cracking my brain doing bio tut... stupid alternative RNA splicing >.<~ do til wana die) when my 'little' brother came 'crying' to me (on msn - just in case u guys wondering where he was - still in singapore)... My first impression was that "no oh... u fail another test is it?!" well lucky that was not it... *heng* if not I think his tuition teacher really wanta peng le... *rite?* haha

So the point that he came crying for help was all because the sabotage in school... that he has to make a class cheer (for god knows wad reason... guess sports day coming or sth)... Then, he showed me 2 of 'his' products... failed big time by me... all the old cheers and no creativity... =.="

And there i was, bored by RNAs, this sudden trigger of genes has activiated my brain to squeeze some creativity juice out of no where... haha... So i helped...

His class was 2R, where are stands for Rescilience (this sound so like a maths equation heading...lol)

With less then 10 mins, i came up with this witty piece of work... Well, u can tell me wad u think tho...

So there is goes: (adjust your own beat... coz i din tell him wad to use too =p)

Resilience Resilience
We are resistant
We are presistant
We prove our existance
Through our competenece

And of coz cannot miss out the last lame part that all cheers have -
*YAY*

haha... and he think it was pretty alrite... AT LEAST, this is 100% original! No preservatives! No MSG! No bones about ! All raw and freshly make from my brain... hahah

It is this piece of work earned me 10 bucks... haha coz i jokingly asked for payment... and we settle on a 10 dollar bill.. woohoo! Quicker then sliver and gold... lol

PS> the above cheers is AlreadY copyrighted to me, so ... u know wad to do... hahaha

my Char Siew =D drooling

2006-07-26T22:08:00.000+08:00

doesn't it look yummy to u? haha

A liSt of mY fAvoUriTeS

2006-07-24T20:02:00.000+08:00

Food: [ chinese / japanses / western ] lov'it all

Pasta - shells
Pasta sauce - carbonara , alfredo -> i have a sudden liking towards cream sauce
Chinese dish - seafood: fried prawns with eggs, sotongs in oyster sauce and my mom's pork chop! yumm....
Ways to cook veg in general - garlic sauce / oyster sauce
Ways to cook fish (i seldom cook.. or rather i never cook fish tho) - my mom's way, wk mom's way and sotong aunt's way [ her aunt one is the 1st time i taste! i like it alot ]
Mom's cooking - all time favourite Pork Chop!! Capsicum with beef, fried salmons... and chinese dishes mentioned above AND SOUPS!
Wine - may be i like white wine better then red
White wine: Chandonnay 2004 from Yarra Valley (VIC)
Red wine: Port from Jacob Creek - Barossa Valley (SA)
Tea - English breakfast, Chinese, Japanese Green, Grey Eryl, Hot Lemon tea!
Coffee - seldom drink coffee, but either cuppacino or feppacino would be good
Jam - lemon & lime (good for waking up in the morning), apricon not bad too! [ mainly citrus jams , not really keen on berries ]
Breakfast - toast with butter and condensed milk! + a glass of milk
Dessert - Cheesecakes!
Icecream - vanilla favour
Junk food - rice crackers and biscuits! Melissa's homebake choc chips cookies!!!! i like white chips tho.. oh nachos too
Fizzy drink - sprite = 7 up / lemon sqaush (by playing sqaush with it?) & Lift... it's nice!
Fruits - i really seldom eat fruits... but may be i like kiwi? hm... coz it is green and it sound cool?

Fastfood: (oh man still talking about food >.<)

KCF's Bandito
Pizza Huts' spicy chicken drumlets, seafood pizza, spicy chicken pizza... *drooling*
Mos' burgers!
Yoshi's beef bowl
Subway's terayaki chicken sandwich... with all the veg in the salad bar except beetroot, and olive
Mc D's Big Breakfast (sausage in england larger de!!! not fair)

Entertainments:

Manga - all time favourite Detective Conan (including all other detectives stories)
Amine - so far the best one that i have watched was ... erh... too many dunno. can i like them all?
Movie - seriously i am not v up-to-date with movies... missed out many good stuff,,, like one year only go cinema at most 5 times? Pirates of the Carebean Sea, da vinci code, Van Hs, Brothers Grimm, John Paul II
Music - pop, techno, euro, house, instrumental, christ carols ...

Places / Hangouts: (wad about hang-ins?)

Muggin spot - at a proper table with nice chair
Slackin spot - napping on the sofa in the living room -> always stun my housemates when they came home
For intellects - libraries (tj lib, Barr Smith lib, state and community lib), bookstores (kino! borders is a subsitution)
Place to free my mind - my heart & the unbeatable ECP
Hangouts - coffec bean & tea leafs, mos' burger, Mayo cafe & B.S. Lib... <- sleeping place between lectures Hang ins - the village
Hang around - the kitchen esp when Mel is cooking or baking... >.<~ i miss her!!! oh, and dythe's neck... but sorry... food comes 1st

Others:

Colour - Red... that's wad they label us Aries.. but personally i like ermmm.. tj green, orange too...
Sport - most water sports (windsurfing - sth that i never tot it would be possible, swimming - since young), land sports may be ice skating, rollar blading, skiing, biking.... all speed related oh and running may be? trainned almost everyday since secondary sch... JCs esp... *chiong ar!!! run for the gate!!! aunt wait!! wait!!!*
Flower - that one leave it for u to find out... haha.. flower without receptacle
Stone - erh... guess it is aquamarine? coz it is said on the horoscope
Subject - Geology. Y? coz i can score in it ar! haha! it's so fun! every sem has field trip to go!!! course work is not heavy too! *cross finger for sem 2* and it is the sub that dythe top in his sec sch
Bus number - 76! coz i am staying in apt 76 now and 76 bus in sg is a direct bus from my house to dythe's house~

I left out the People session coz i wantta put some pics on it too... i think if i contine to type on this post it might be too long...... so... wait for Part II for my favourites kaz...

Melbourne Sickness -.-"

2006-07-24T15:09:00.000+08:00

On the nite that we came back from melbourne, i met shu jun, a church friend of my schoolmate from tj... ( v shocking surprise.. imagine u just reached home and there is someone that u dun know calling and say "hi... i will be coming to get some stuff.. blah blah blah" It is another interesting way of meeting new friends. "fresh" from melbourne trip and being alone at home, i naturally would be happily bubbling away when there is actually someone coming to talk to u.. so i did.. haha

1st was yy who got melbourne sickness.... shown during the 2nd nite of the trip... we were at backpackers at Port Campbell, Great Ocean Road. She was on the upper deck of my bunk... All of us in the room heard her giggling and laughing.. telling dunno who " dun be so noisy lah" ... creepy man... obvously she was sleep talking. And see those photo that we took on that nite!! it totally match her action ... lol
* the photo is not published yet... coz too scary... *

Next come me and garrick when we got back to adelaide... both of us wake so damn early in the morning... even during hols... cannot sleep long... coz when we were in melbourne we used to waking up like 4 , 5 am in the morning, getting ready for our day tours... (manz... we were more hardworking then gg to sch... morning 5 til afternoon 5... so damn hardworking sia all sleep on the coach once we are on board *lol*)

Then... mine got worst i guess... beside the change in waking pattern, it changes my thinking too... oh man... this is all too dangerous... the guard was rite! "you will be consumed, slowly, by melbourne and none of us would remain the same ever" <- in some way this statement is just too general.

I was not thinking alot, but may be because of too bored and have been reading those lovey comics... I made quite a few conclusion from wad i read. (apparently forgotten wad they are... coz i told dythe then i slept...+.+!) will add them on when i think of them

And i am getting more clusmy too..=S yesh yesH... i know wad u are thinking... i have been clusmy all this while.... bang here and there, cuts and blisters... *i just cut myself while keeping hairbands... got cut by them! can u imagine!!! >.<~* but then I found that i was not pay attention to my surrounding as much anymore... somehow i was like drifted somewhere while i was doing things... i printed foolscape on the wrongsides... keep forgetting things here and there... I think... it all starts with that stupid sleep-wake pattern...

Stress? kind of too... then anticipation of newhousemates was overwhelming ever since i got "home". The reception would not tell me when these " lovely" ladies are coming in... i seriously hope that they are "lovely & generous" i meant it! I have been home alone for 2 week plus? and every morning if i heard i slightest sound, i would go out to the living room and check if there is someone. And thankfully last week Michelle told me that THEY (2 of the 3 gals) should be coming THIS week - just when i had a nightmare about my newhousemates:

[ I dreamt that one is PRC, then the other is M'sian. The PRC was "dao", not really that friendly to talk to and moved my stuff here and there to make herself comfortable - not the kind that i would like... But the m'sian is a nice and shy gal, quite weirdly i remember 'her' rehersing in cantonese how to intro herself to me... and that moment i din mention to her that i am a hker... *lol* and somehow, this dream was quite clear... i could see their faces, but by now i have forgotten. when i woke up that morning i almost believed the dream was real... lucky not... Michelle said that they would put a letter underneath my door the day before the newcomers came... I have been checking my door everyday... LoL ]

okey... The week just started since yesterday... but yea... til today i am still alone. ( I am kind of glad about that ) Just JUST JUST seriously pray that people who come in would be as nice as my last batch of housemates and be more cleaniness conscious then them!

hm... so far that's all the symptoms i guess... will update if i have more...

PS> DND if i am lack of sleep, for i will bite.

Injuries of the month

2006-07-15T23:56:00.000+08:00

coz i am too clumsy... have been injuing myself here and there...
So, let me report to u the total 'damage' that had been caused so far:

-blisters on legs caused by skiing in melbourne -> the boots were too tight!
-cuts on hands (esp on the middle finger of each hand) -> coz have been sketch against doors when opening them... =.= oh even on the thumb too
-knocked my forehead against the base of a cupboard when cleaning kitchen -> i was cleaning too hard
-knocked my head again! just tis morning... against the railing of my bed... -> this was not that hard... lucky...

Erh.. that'a all for now... hope the list will terminate here... >.<~

*Medic!!! where is the medic!!! medic medic medic.... *

bad habits

2006-07-15T12:20:00.000+08:00

...really v difficult to change...HOW?

sometimes it really bothers me alot... but then sometimes i just chuck it behind my head... not thinking of it much...

Yet i know that's not the way one should solve this conflicts...

Sometimes i dun even know wad i am feeling or thinking... it seems that ' I ' can be operated in many dimensions. Always unknowingly i would slip into one and teleported to another...

But... dun worry, i am not insane... i guess this is natural and happens to all of us sometimes... The feeling of being Lost and Lonely... Stand alone and be the odd =i have been the odd one for long...=

Well, we are just human. This is the only prove of us being humane, afterall.
And we have the power to beat the odd instead drifted by fate and destiny... Or... may be, that's our destiny.

Tagged by Sotong...

2006-07-10T17:31:00.000+08:00

Saw the tag like erm... last month i guess... * i guess * din really have time to bother such thing coz i already got one with me... *grin* okok... dun grin... i know if Yue is reading she will yell "wahlao BHB leh! ... etc... " so i will shuss and type wadever that is required of me. kaz?
haha... and Of Coz... things that i type down here is not to 'fu yan' the tag lah... so.. Read On yo! heE *oh man... u are so kpo =p*

The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points about his/her perfect lover. *is that alot of ask of? may be not... most people may come up with a score of rules on it... haha*
Have to mention the gender of his/her perfect lover. *this made is wonder wad other put as...*
Tag eight other victims to join this game and leave a comment on their blog. *this is victimising ppl rite... i'm sorry friends... have to torture u with this*
If you are tagged the second time. There is NO need to do this again.
Lastly, most importantly, HAVE FUN DOING IT. *haha... i think is more fun to READ rite?*

okayz... so... let's get started!

My prefect lover, 1st thing 1st, MUST be a Guy... for sure.

And here comes the 8 criteria for him to be my perfect guy:

Height - Tallness - bare minium, must be taller then me... Somehow i like guy to be taller then i am, probably for the sense of secuity? But yea, i think the guy has be to tall... physcial bare minium...
Connection - there must be connection between me and my perfect guy... coz there would be nothing if u dun even know ur lover, wad more about being perfect rite? He, to be perfect, can commuciate with me without barrier, on the same frequence as i am... ( i could be lame, stupid and blur at timeS... yea... most of the time...) AnD, for these communcation to happen, there must be somthing in common between two of us... if not where the topics for all the 'chit chats' comes from? I believe common interests and similar ideal are the contributing factors to long term relationship too...
Faith - this trust between me and my guy is necessary, to stay strong like a castle. Especially if it is LDR... trust is where the relationship build on. There will be no turning back and no future for guys who could not trust me... coz insecure relationship tends to tied down both parties... the worries and tensions will cause the parties to repel each other... With faith and trust, there would then be personal space and freedom for each of us... I suppose no one like to be chain down like a POW rite?
Patience a.k.a. Energy - coz i am a v reckless person... super 'kancheong spider' that jump here and there when i am under stress or over energize (seldom reach that state nowsday) i need someone that can keep me calm and listen to my rumble grumble... >.<~
Honesty - to be able to tell me everything without hidding and doing things behind my back... one of the aspect i most admired for those who can do that. I hate guys who cheat.
Intelligence + Creativity - the need of compensating my dullness... to spice up life - in a good way... also... coz i am attracted to fresh ideas and interesting stuff... these quality of a guy would keep me with him
Strong - both physcial and mental. The person has to be sensible and logical... if not how would u expect the guy to understand you rite? if he is not sensible... u might ended up counciling him and mothering him... ohman... i had enuff of that. And only if he is strong then u can rely on him... girls like the feeling of being protected, don't we?
Able to cook - bonus point! - i think guys that are able to cook are attractive... imagine ur boyfriend actually cook and bake stuff for u... sweeT rite! That would really wrap up everything and be perfect!

*whew* finally finished 8 points... brain cracking man... plus i hit my head today... >.<>

So... i guess now i should pass on the fire...

These are the next lucky ones who shall have the honour to list their criteria for their ideal lover:

Yin Yue

Nadia

Eric

Jeremy (again)

Timidy

Tree

Lay Hoon

Chin Fatt

*even to think of who should write also v difficult... limited resource sia*

Haunting

2006-06-30T02:13:00.000+08:00

10 years old nightmare came back to haunt,
The details that i remembered must not be wrong.

Overwhelmed by a strange feeling as a 10 years old lied,
Woke to only see the provider around, checking on his young.

While the little slept well and tight,
His elder spent its dark trembled and cried.

Did it happend? Did it not?
Has her worries been heard? Has her woes cleared off?

The child was too young, her words were too soft;
Questions unsolved, were hidden and locked.

Sunken into the deep blue, where it wouldn't be found.

But that, was a naive thought.
The awaken dream came back to huant.

A dream? A secret? that yond hold til death?
Til then, I would pray that it was a dream.

i am...

2006-06-02T19:03:00.000+08:00

(mean + sarcastic )greedy^2 x hypocritic = me under stress... +.+" *note the colour*

tell me... wad can u infer from here?

my classroomS...

2006-05-24T16:31:00.000+08:00

Aren't u guys jealous?! classroom on the rocks by the seasides... literally... my demostrator on the rocks... he moves so fast and steady like a mountain goat... *duh.. with hiking boots who won't... * but must be proud of ourselves the little sheeps following behind him... we managed our way out to the classroom 5.1 haha

This is not the end... The BEST has yet to come... just when we thought the 3 hours at stop 5 would not be as havoc as Stop 3 on the 1st day... we meet up with a decision to make... to 'create' a shortcut 200m up from the bottom of the mountain to its summit... *siao rite* and without a words, the guys in group just started climbing... well... me... always the last of the group... taking pics, and next moment... up on the 80 degrees steep 'slope' -> if u still can call they a slope... vertical slope??
(no pics for the slope... i was too preoccupied to make sure i dun slide down the slope =.=... which i almost did)

Like mc said " we risk our lives to see THOSE rocks... "and there we were, walking on them, climbing on them, sitting on them... to feel and learn about them... [this is totally crazy, but that's the way it is... i guess dythe would really love wad i have been doing for geology - i can feel being like u.. haha]

This pic was taken when i 1st got up from the 'slope'... looked like a mad woman after climbing =.=" notice the rainbow behind?! nice?! Thanks to the blessing of showers, we have been seeing rainbows since morning til then end when we head back to uni... It has been following us everywhere!! That's just the begining of a rainbow forming!

Oh man... in this pic i look even madder... >.<>

That's mc from sg =) my geo and bio prac-mate

The BEST reward when u climbed hard and crazy enough to get to the summit... entire view of the ocean with a bridge of rainbow right in front of u... this just made everything worthwhile!

Who can hang a rainbow in their classrooms?!
Only we can! Rainbow by day and Milkyway by nite!!!

"I climbed the mountain, I conquered the coast; it roars, it hunts, but we beat them all!!"

Charise was really truely deeply inspired.

Weekly Report of Campus life

2006-05-12T13:25:00.000+08:00

Monday: cold and moody, (i guess?) acutally rite now i also can't really remember... At 1st dun even want ta go to sch, but cannot declare hols coz i then realised that i have pract that day. Charise walked with sotong to sch and then slept thru 1st lecture again... Bio... movie time, the lecture switched off the lights of half the LT and madee it so romantic for sleeping... ha... but i was awaking when to talk about important things...din really sleep throughout actually, i still know wad she was talking about ( stuff like PRC... ).

Brunch: chicken + cheese roll. Munched and do bio ws at the same time, then went for chem lecture... another boring one... And 3hours break! (just like now... just that today is friday.. yea..) I was doing work in Mayo til quite late... i was staring blank at the end and saw my senior at the end of the table waved at me. (din realised that until 5 secs later =.=)

Then, BOmB, bio pract... disasterous for the previous pract... scored so damn low and that garlic sotong score so high!!! *protesting* The pract was okey... and slow but kind of interesting... i was chatting with mc sometimes during pract.. basically everyone was chitchatting while doing the expt... coz the pract just... easy... It was the graphs that kills... and the report too! tho i was kind of prepared for it, but then it still takes me 2 hours to draft and 3 hours to actually write the entire report... ( i know dythe is going to nag.. he was nagging on monday nite too... but then not only i am doing it at this speed... seriously it takes time to write and to come up with a good format... trying v hard to score high for the 5%) But i kept in mind that i have to work quick! *charise good doggie de*

So monday nite was gone writing report and tuesday nite too writing report too.

Tuesday: Morning 1st thing Geo Pract. I was kind of early that day ( well, earlier then i would normally.. few mins only... the bus was fast that's why - for that day... hahah... well the pract was okey... the lecture was okey... (charise was dreaming away).... then that 3 hours breaks too... dreamy day man.... couldn't really start work... and when finally reached the 5 pm psychology class... i tot it would be a good end... *charise was quite sian sian waiting to go home le* And just as the lecturer starts lecturing, i felt that i have gone to the wrong lecture....

The lecturer was interesting, just that i was on the wrong topic at the wrong time. It was talking about unconditional and conditional stimulus and responses.... under the topic of learning. So he went on to describe the dog experiment (forgotten the 'scienific' name le) anway... so here it goes like this: a tube is inserted into the mouth of the dog - of coz the dog is being tight up and mouth is taped... *poor doggie* FIRSTLY, like anay biology experiment (though this is psychology) u have to starve the object to be tested to get accurate and better results - like yeasts cells for fermentation and plants for photosynthesis, so in this case, the poor dog gets it.
Then, the experimenter will RinG the BelL before giving food to the starving dog... this is to test how fast is the rate of salivation will take - thus after some time when this action is repeated over a week or two, it would be able to test the rate of response... the change from unconditional response to conditional.

By then when the dog hears the bElL, he would come to associate food with bell - bell means food!!! And unfortunately when charise was at the lecture... she was not with a full stomach... ate lunch super early.... >.<>.<~ and the worst is that for the entire lecture the lecturer was saying about ringing the bell and associating food with the bell.. I was having gastric pain and thinking of was to cooking already! hope that he will end early so that i can RUSH home and cook my dinner... lol... experimental results - PoSitIve.

That was really close shave for the doggie... if not would faint half way during lecture le.. thanks to my loyal supporter - fats... hahah

then after dinner the doggie was battling with bio pract again... from 8 pm do all the way until 12 + i guess.... the graph was really stupid… draw already either the straight line is really straight with 1 dot anomalous, else it has to be a perfect CurVe instead of perfect LinE… so… bo pian lah… ended up asking my housemate Mel to help me hold the ruler and I draw the curve lor… hahah thanks to her that I manage to spot some of my mistakes in the pract also. If not two graphs all gone case le…

Charise was waiting for Dythe’s msgs also… =) energised by the msg and continued… I was trying to do as fast as I can too… but then I guess that the speed everyone else does… yesh… still… I would try to work my way faster =.=

Wednesday: Declared Holiday!!!! The Charise’s sleeping day… morning sotong called and I told her that I am not going to uni le… gave up on the 2 lectures and a tut… well… not much I guess – sure for bio but then actually still feel like going to chem lecture, just that too late le… wake 7am then went back to sleep til 10 + washed up, eat then finish up my bio ws! *finally* - coz need to hand up on Thursday ( =’<>

Thursday and Friday will be up soon.... no time to post yet =.=

Multi-cultural day

2006-05-11T15:39:00.000+08:00

Well well.. this things was well publized in the village for about 2 weeks... community has been asking people to sign up to cook a cultural dish down and enjoy the evening of food and activities planned and of coz, to meet people from all over the world...

At 1st, i din intend to join at all... well, lazy to cook, really... cooking is really troublesome... especially u are required to cook ur own v unique cultural dish... =.=" come on... wad is unique from Hong Kong that is EaSy to cook!? instant noodles? instand dimsum i guess... but then it would defeat the entire purpose of multicultural day... the day for not only other to learn about your culture, but to remind urself of ur own origin and practise ur tradition - gosh.. sound so like governemnt saying that "we must preserve our own uniqueness and cultural trandition!" *diaoz... too much NE from sg*

Then my buddy in this kumpong - the sotong on the 5th floor was saying that as long as we help out for flag painting and stuff we can EAT for FREE... please note the word "eat" and "free", who wouldn't want that? haha, and food incentive works best for me... so sat after shopping from Central Market and straight away went down to help painting.... abit here and there... coz there weren't much flags left not painted.. (i was kind of late... but that sotong was even later... hmpt! tell me come down so early to paint and she slowly come down from 5th floor... this prove that 8 or more legs doesn't help much... synapse is the speed limiting factor.. ha =p) anway... after painting... well.. the dog got paint everywhere also... paws and legs... then, the community really knows how to make full use of volunteers, ask us to cut stickers... but of coz we are willing to help coz we din do much anyway.. and it was an easy task... just move ur fingers to get it done.. and Done! *i tot so too* Just as we tot that we are done - accumulated enuff credits for free food on sunday... one of the helper reminded us that we HAVE to cook a dish to come down for the party.

FinE!... coz the sotong and I were worried and for dunno wad reason we worried... we ended up run out of the kumpong to buy ingredients to cook for multicultural day... red bean puff...

BiG MISTAKES man.... coz ended up i cooked most of the stuff.... boiled the red bean. made the paste.. til 4am on sunday, got woken around 9+ >.<>.<>

The tok was.. short and crappy? everytok is crappy anway... and the feast started... ate alot! hunted down alot of food... thailand noodle salad, tea leaves eggs, sushi, muffins, INSTANT wanton (there are actually people to bring that out .. gosh) bee hoon soup, korean babie....etc.... and amazing our red bean puff was "sold out" quickly... one of the fastest to be gone! Charise down here was really happy... at least, the hard work was pay off.

The rest of the multicultural day is just like multi-racial day back in sch... quiz time, then best dress and best dish award... stuff like that... i ran off half way to rest and start work... see my schedule below and u will know... all thanks to such stupid decision of joining the 'party' i lost my time for working on my tests, pract, hw and EXAM!!!! the dog was kind of pissed off... but then it was a "food-filling" day.

With sleepy monday coming around in the corner.

Reporting my schedule

2006-05-05T19:08:00.001+08:00

Task for weekend / coming up week:

-bio pract [fermentation] due weds
-geo pract on tues (1st thing in the morning >.<")
-geo short quiz on tues
-bio short quiz on thurs (1st thing in the morning >.<~)
-bio ws 9 due thurs
-geo lecture test on fri (very large %)

Market and luandry on Sat
Sunday... mother's day yo!!
MONDAY NO HOLS ar... 15th of May not HOLS... please rem to go to sch hahaha
So sorry for garlic.. his b'day no hols =p

UP coming TesT : week 12 bio test (5%)

UP coming... EXAM... in ... 42 days... oh man =S

*stupid blog... just now i typed so much now all gone.. =( sianed... i am not going to type that again.. anway it was just about my week that;s all.. i will tell u if u ask...*

2006-05-04T16:42:00.000+08:00

Tainted

2006-05-04T16:23:00.000+08:00

I have a little dark secret,
As little as it was, as little as it grows
But recently it has lost control.
It is wild, it is reckless,
It has overwritten my desire, sinful as it’s seen.
It is corrupting my mind, rotting my soul;
Awful as it sound, shameful as it is,
Drifting me further away from Him.
Away from sanity, away from purity.

The thoughts of it were tearing me apart.
Strength, determination, discipline are all I need?
Strength, determination and discipline have to save the day.
As the only hope they are, to rescue me from deeper temptation.
As the only hope they are, to change my life.
Till then, empower me, to put everything to an end.