Fresh Grad in Biomed Science
The very "international" international student with identity crisis
Always mistaken as a Malaysian
interest: love good food and company.
Hong Kong & Singapore
Adelaide, South Australia
Glasgow, Scotland UK
☻to finsih with 1st class honours
☻to get a larger GB smaller size hdd
☻to learn driving within 2009
☻to backpack the entire Oz once
☻to travel to North America in the next 2 years
☻to get a gd job by 2010
☻.to have many more fun gatherings with friends br> ☻to get a good place to stay comfortabily this 2009
☻to have good health
☻to save enough money that I can buy a house before 28? (okey, just some place i own, so i dun have to move like nomads)
☻to stay happy with dear and dear with me =)
Nothing more precious than you spending time with me♥♥
Bee
Chin Fatt
Jeremy
Ming Chien
Tah Wee
Tree
Yann Yoong
Yin Yue
Nadia
Ilona
Ga Yeong
Shu Li
Hee tai tai
University of Adelaide
University of Glasgow
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Monday, December 31, 2007
it came... after i talked to francis... lol... the conversation with him was interesting as ever... help me kill some time despite the fact that i a super tired and ... alot of work to do... =( who the hell would mug like me for christmas and new year.. wth... haix.. well not like i really did alot of work BUT. the point is. i should be enjoying and go classouting with everyone at marina bay!!!! T.T *sob* well it was my choice anyway. i guess i would have plenty of classouting *fingercross* after i grad (like in 2009 =s) or so... haix but then nad's last hols is next year!!! i wont be back til 2009 argh.... time flies.
francis pointed out that not any normal singaporean guy can keep up with me, as in, the way i choose to live. (in my understanding lah) i was well aware of that. it's not easy having a LDR for almost 2 years with ur gf overseas and coming home like ONCE a year. It's depressing for both parties. But the fact that it was my choice and there was so many unsucessful cases arise from people gg to aus and uk.... well it was no wonder that friends around him would pity him and worries. I totally understand where they come frome, and was glad to hear a friend speaking up. It's quite interesting to see how guys support / care for each other. lol.
Then of coz he would ask things like "5, 10 years down the road" u know that kind of future qn. To many of my friends here in glasgow, whoever asked, this was the answer:
qn: "how long have you been with him?"
ans: "since high sch ~ 2 years and 8 months"
common response: "omg, how sweet!!! "
qn: "will you get married with him?" [this is a qn that classmates and close friend won't ask - directly- so far]
possible ans: "yea" [economic of words], "if we would last that long" [for people who knows abit more and sounded in doubt]
usually i will get a oic response... lol...
honestly see people getting marry at out age - is not a common thing in the first place, but it feels really nice. there are people planning tho ;) hope to get invited some days.
but yea, out of the topic... He also asked like where would i settle, jobs, yadayada... guess the same would goes for everyone during classouting. its just really common thing when u meet ur firends and say hi and start chatting everything under the sun. People at our age are still searching for directions and trying to see where they could place themselves in the society. so am i.
well so it was a nice chat, really gd advisory session with my all-time advisor. and waited for about 30mins? dunno how long, suddenly see my beam flashing on the screen. lol. so he came in a happy tone. he was really happy, retail therapy helped. hm. not so much for me.... (u have to see who u are shopping with). anyway, so he finally initated to hear each other. Alas! i was saved.
a 2 hours conversation, partial remedy for depression and insomia (i hope) but result in gastric.
anyway, i really wan to hear more. hope to see u in 2008. soon. really soon. ARGH i can't wait for another 6 months!!!! =( sian... why am i an SCIENCE exchange with heaps of work and exam at the wrong time!!!! argh... Yesh, there i go again. u'll have to teach me a new way to complain if u dun wan to get bored by me for the next few decades. *i am warning u now* that is if u ever see this. -.-"
8:30 AM
Sunday, December 30, 2007
Half of the cause was obviously due to stress. But this morning i realised that there is another reason for this sleeplessness. Well, let me tell u about my dream - guess it only lasted like 5 mins.. but i woke me up from my bed... after trying so hard to sleep last nite...
I managed to really relax for last nite i guess, coz i feel better then previous day. I was desperate to hear him last nite. coz i know i miss him soooo much that i can't sleep. i read thru notes and letters, photos that bring me back to the past. Then hugged bluie, and finally found myself in this dream:
i remember trying to call you and somehow it work. u picked up the phone and spoke to me. so i asked, 'are u gaming?' 'yea, but then when u call the internet went off...' there was silence coz i remember i was sleepy in my dreamt and being blurred like when u are really sleepy. (weird huh.. i am sleeping but then i can feel like being v sleepy when i am sleeping.. =x *dotz* i was like, hm, since i managed to hear u, i interrupted your game and i din have much to say, so i just end this call. all seems v simple, BUT then i dunno somewhere along the way he said this to me, 'go and find someone better' (hm... before bfast i still remember so clear that it shock me and i can't sleep, but after bfast i forgot -.-)
Then, tis is absurd... i vaguely remember that i was somewhere on a ship, saw friends from AU, and we were talking about coursework / exam? THEN..... _._ i dreamt of 1 character from bleach (the pink hair girl) and the main character from D'grey man, both in shimigami clothes, and trying to 'rescue' their friend - a girl, who dun wan to go back... blocked by the former captain... (PS> i din watch anime for long time le...)
Wad these means? it means I really really mish him, i am stress about exam, and i am totally messed up. -.-" that girl who do not wish to return, could be my subconscious... myself.
4:54 PM
Saturday, December 29, 2007
is a happy ending. so far. i am really happy and cheer up reading it. There is love.
At the same time i was reminded that... how pathetic i am for this year's christmas. yea.. once in a life time quietest christmas nite ever, where i sulked and he rotted with friend around him. Christmas was not meant to be like that yea? we did had a good time last year in hk.... i did put in effort to make him 'feel' for christmas... but i guess like bear say: we guys can't do things like having u in his arm.
He is just. SIAN. a big word already stamped on his forehead.
me too! just that i din put a face - coz there was no one around! so my strings of pearls fell.
Jason (friend from GUSS) told me that i am not alone, coz He who is above is always there and know everything. [one gd friend to have - wad he say did comfort me abit]
but i like to self indulge...
Ramiro and a few more talked to me on Christmas nite as well. Hope his father is okey.
Rachael was sick. well its the weather.
A few more, like James? and Star i think... oh well i did really sound pathetic and sad on my nic. Coz its just the time that u should tell the world u are not happy.
Other than typing on the com chatting with the aboves... The only people that i did open my mouth to was my family. I was brighten up for a while... but its depressing not to hear from you. Its just depressing to know that we are both sianned and sad but no one bothers to do sth. So i was the one who turned the table.
as usual.
And i start to think. And i start to blog. Coz i have no one to tok to.
Thinking that it was not as bad when i was in adelaide. and the difference could be due to time, which was overcame. but wad more was that we din webcam for 3+ months.
I guess i am fading. fading as sunshine and rain. He felt it was like 3 different persons that he was talking to when he see my pic, chat on msn and voice chat on yahoo. The touch is lost.
bad connection.
oh well, i might be overemphazing things again am i? it's really not that bad... really....
At least, i know when i see the watch. Must sth be done then!?
8:50 AM
Digging out the past do no gd to anyone... but i dunno why i am jsut such a kpo person trying to sabotage my coming exam. This is shit... =.= screwed myself a thousand times but i guess mental and emotional distributance are the killers. dun get me wrong. i am not gg insane.. just that i have uncovered things that was meant to be 6 feet under
.
This is irritating like a fly.
Honestly come to think about it, its no biggie, its no biggie... can't i just dun be such a narrow person and be abit more forgiving or rather, understanding? its really nth wrong seriously. may be its my personality... lao mao bin again, having high expectation, being a perfectionist, thus? not allowing mistakes and 'wrong' doing of others. i dunno if any of you, my friends feel this way: if i measured u with my own standard. but i guess everyone would have done so. just that i am competitive in nature, and thinking everything is a competition in this world.
Recently someone asked me wad's my horoscope. well. it ain't obvious to some, but i jolly well know myself inside out. thinking about it. I think i know why i an so interested in digging that, yet can't take it when the results are sour. jealousy is always the cause. reading life stories are like keeping me in touch with humanity. Its ugly. Its sadist. Foul plays is the way and survival of the fittest is the rule. But somehow when i read these stories, i do feel, i sympathies with the person. And i do jealous of wad i not have. For many, people would envy my life too. Its sensible and logical, because none of us are perfect. honestly, its more addictive than drama, the more i read, the more i actually wan to know the person. Or rather, it IS a drama of its own kind. Her drama, his drama, my drama... we are all under the spotlight in the the central stage of life. I am an actor. I act according to social rules, being politcally correct and modest. Am i cunning or being smart. But i do not wear a facade in front of my friends and family... that's why there are frictions and quarrals... its humane.
How true it is!
So i am being humane and just in my own way. but would this actually make me feel better?
This is worth a ponder.
6:34 AM
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
yup... being alone at home. so i did something to cheer myself up. FOOD!! i love food. love food love food love food *bite dythe*... lol yesh i know we were both unhappy. both sianned abit being too far apart... i hate that too, as time goes by, it just getting like a pain in the ass... But dun worry, i will be graduating next year.. muahahahahah u noob! hahahahaha.
really hope to see u soon... i will do sth about that stupid network here. after exam and reports.. =( okey. back to food that makes me happy.. i dun like to study anymore...
Here is a biomed student doing practs... totally off lab standard..... no gloves!!!! handling biohazard!!!
The chicken flour and egg, tree will know wad this means... *yum!*
Step 1: deep frying next they ere sunbathing in the oven...
capsicum joined in the fun... lol i love them...
i cooked carrots too! the way they taste like in restaurant ... Hee...
Happy van...
Starter!
Food together
makan makan!!!!
half time entertainment... FIREWORKS!!
A light dessert before i start to make the real thing.. lol Christmas cake!!! (honestly by then i am already full... coz main course eat too much =x the chicken is simply nice. Oishi!!!!)
7:47 AM
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
well, coz we are a group of people in glasgow has nth better to do. literally. so we have a mini party at Yoji's function room =) (met Yoji only like 2 or 3 days ago... a friend of Star... )
4 japanese guys, 1 from china and me... 6 altogether - i am the only undergrad... it was alright. of coz nth comparable to that of Adelaide's. its Christmas today! i... better start mugging after this.
Just got a msg from Chris, yea, i guess i am the most pathetic exchange student in glasgow. This sux coz i am an exchange. i feel sux. i can't cheer up. not at all. anyway dun let my mood spoil the pics here =)
As usual, i will bake a cake for an event =) *fast and cheap*
looks yummy? it actually tasted really gd like hm... choc toffee that kind of texture =D
Food! lol... quite fattening actually, but at least there was turkey. I ate turkey for the first time in my life!!!
Yoshi (far) & Yoji (near)
The guys... haha everyone is waiting for me to finish taking the pic before they tuck in. lolThen Star and Yoji came to my place for a chat til like 15 to 1... it was a late nite again... =.= It was a gd nite chilling out... with a TV and friends.. lol Thankyou for organising and sharing experience =)
5:22 PM
Monday, December 24, 2007
It's fated that this year i will have no present and no gg out with friends on Christmas day itself. I still can't get over the fact that i am stuck here and THE FACT THAT MY ANOTHER CLASSMATE INIVITED ME TO HER HOME down south LIKE YESTERDAY and she now din reply my text again. Called no reply. i dunno if i should really take a train up and meet her. seriously. WHY ARE THEY SO LAST MINUTE! i din see the text til today like just now when i went out to get sth in tesco. i gave up hope when she din txt or call me for half a month and the other classmate told me that her parents dun wan outsider to join in. ...
this is just. fate.
no one bothers. even ah dear got friends to pei him. just asking me what am i gg to do later then zao liao. very gd sia. i am really sad.
ai. i should just stop thinking about its christmas... take it as one of the normal day and exam is at the end waiting for me... psycho myself...
exam exam exam!!!! arhhhh study lah van!!!!
11:48 PM
yesterday nite on the way walking out to Byres road... i keep looking into people's flat. I can't help it because every single flat has A Christmas Tree by their window. The more i look, the more lonely i feel. I should have gotten a tree as well! at least that would make it look more like christmas ....
the dinner was excellent! taken pic of the appi and dessert but forgot about the main course only after i finished eating... too gd already...
Goose leg with cranberry sth... lol
Their famous sticky toffee pudding!!! VvVVVV nice!
main course i order the roast chicken breast... yea.. very nice... really vvv nice... of coz the bill is erm... but once in a while esp when i am like overseas not many friends staying back and the point is I AM ON EXCHANGE!!! come on.. i am sure my family today would be gg out to eat also lo.. tho may be not like wad i eat. but i think its okey lah... i dun have Chinese new year celebration for a few years also. So it was really gd to have arranged a dinner with James and Jean (from sing soc here) =) nice dinner and evening. Thanks for your accompany! No. 16!! =D
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oh talking about Christmas, at first i tot i would be able to experience very special for an exchange to have... my classmate did invite me to celebrate Christmas with her family. I was overjoyed and never tot that my dream would come true. of coz it was a let down. if not i won't be here blogging. lol.
It was a major let down coz after knowing that I would be back for some family matters, she just keep telling me to go home and saying that i would embarrass her if I go to her place coz her family is "bad"? i was like, why would there people saying their family is bad?! the word she say sometimes made me feel terrible; "it's a shame that u can't celebrate it with you family", "it's a shame ....." . she may be just overconcerned and worrying and for her, unlike most of us my friends, has not been leaving her family or country like we do.. of coz i can understand her feeling. I was touched, at first, but irritated afterwards. I felt like she is just telling me to scram home. That's how i feel. after a while i feel that she dun really meant wad she say. of coz I wouldn't want to think bad about her coz she was nice. Just that i really dun feel gd about it.
And hearing that my housemate did invite me to London, she say: why dun u go somewhere else better... honestly i remember she did say that line. Go somewhere else huh...
She was just totally getting on my nerves. of coz i would sad and irritated. Well, guess we just have to make do with the cultural difference and be understanding... Let phase it this way: she has not seen the world enough... so do i. JUST that, let me be clear, i am a easy to tok to person, if u dun wan me to come just say str to my face. dun give me lame excuses and kacau me once in a while to tell me things that are not related and trying to make me feel that i am the bad guy. I am not stupid. coz that's really mean and torturous.
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hm feeling slightly better? yea the dinner last nite did it make better, but still i can't help to think that this year i am having christmas with friends that i met only once or twice. amazing, yet, weird. i guess times like this will bind people together. This is the second christmas with friends only. But the dinner was much better then a few year's back of coz... dunno about tonite's party... the food should be .. like that lo.. ha.. nvm lah. i will update again.
A Christmas without snow, tree and present... oh and turkey. somehow it wasn't within my expectation.
8:32 PM
just before i sleep tonite, i wan to post up some personal pic that when i see they reminded me of the good old times, some time funny, but some of them stirred feelings. .. well may be because this christmas is so lonely for me... can't help looking back in time...
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Back in 2005 when we were still both year2s... lol we looked toot! erh not much change me for lah... hahah but we really looked kiddo
This one we looked slightly better. After A level, went running about all over Singapore before weekim be gone and lost in the army and me flying off to Aussieland... well actually back then i dun even have a uni to get in... 2005 dec. ERh. wait, i think both pic was taken the same period of time! lol... blur liao +.+"
This one was taken when my best buddy sotong - okey- yann yoong at her balcony for drying clothes... first year of uni in adelaide. back then, things were simple, pure and good fun. I miss you girl. it was really nice knowing u. from the bottom of my heart. (okey even know i appeared really mean to u... but i am really sorry for that lah girl) >.<~ Sorry! 
This, was my secret present final product! take me like 3 months lol coz i have no time to do it in one shot... 365 hearts, 10 langage for the special one. oh and a very tough letter written in fan ti chinese. lol. he hates it.
Barossa valley. My love for wine. and love was in the air huh... lol ... that was april. we the bunch of good friends, me garrick, yann yoong and yeap shen, plus my kawaii housemate sachiko! Gd food, gd wine, gd scenary & gd friends!
Dinner parties!!!! where i cooked like their favourite sweet & source pork, and they made me Taco! I miss mel and jess and mel from yy's house lol.. i know, this is confusing. hahaha. love cooking =)
This , was alot alot alot of dumplings for mulit-culture day. Me and sotong did it. well first time so i did more but subsequently she picked up the skills as well. ERh that was this photo that i really looked like i was 3 months pregant while cooking but that's my TUMMY!.. decided not to put up. =x i cooked til drop dead ar.
<- Port Adelaide
Okey, these ones are really funny pics.. sorry garlic, i happened to see ur hair in my album and it did make me laugh and decided to share to joy. dun worry me and shujun pei ni. lol XD
Yan Dao - shuai gei lai le!!! this is our Angel of the Year, Yeap shen! Photo taken by dunno who, but photoshopped by bee! any girl interested? =p
Japan has sakara, we have erh, purple trees! whole street of them! forgot the name of the plant but yea some one told me before erh.. jack sth... lol if u know please tell me okey.. so LHS we have real flowers for spring, RHS we have flowers sent from tropical country... Sunflower! i like sunflower coz it give u the feeling of happiness... somehow that's wad i think. lol. tho it was not the flower that i like since young. but really appreciate ur effort! it was a surprise and stress relief! =D *hugz*
lol okey, LHS is my first party, actually met for sotong birthday de,, the she smart smart go and bake a cake, which she was not meant to lah.... but nvm it was gd fun still. I entertained her by wearing wad u see.. okey lah... haix.. RHS. me & phy! missing u girl... it was really gd to get out after exam and have buffet and dessert! last time was elephant walk right... now i guess our new favourite would be chocolate bean... i am missing it here!
this was the season of fall. everyone is leaving after a year being such a family for each other. I was kinda sad, the sadness swelled up and it was translated into "skylight".
okey i guess that's all for today, i was suppose to sleep like 2 hours ago. now 2.15am! siao .. my dark rings.. ARGGGGGGH @.@ poor van. okey friends. hope u enjoy the pic and dun mind me putting them up. MERRY CHRISTMAS! its the SILENT NITE... lol... *silence*
9:11 AM
Thursday, December 20, 2007
finally i can call myself a traveller lol... been to sooooo many places within this 3 months... honestly u wont believe, i am like a part time student full time traveller. lol Yesh.. which means i din even study and skipped more lectures and sleep thru more then ever... seriously, this is 3rd year, i am so screwed....
well, let me list the places i have been to then:
::September::
-glasgow bus tour and i think i fall asleep? no impression of that...
-stiring castle & distillary [first castle of my life]
-Loch Lomond [beautiful day]
-Edinburgh [Scotland's captial! - very nice place]
::October::
-Oban & Isle of Mull [ city by the bay & 3 more castles]
-Dundee & St. Andrew [nice icecream in st andrew!]
::November::
-Isle of skye [the MUST GO in SCOTLAND!]
::December::
-LONDON [my very first self-planned and self-directed tour] great experience that i need. Met up with lotsa friends and made friends through the process. BUT i still LOVE SCOTLAND MOST!!!! Scotland roX! haha okey, if u are english / irish dun throw stone to me... blame it to my limited financal support. For i have no money to travel to your country as much.
::More place of interest::
=England=
-Manchester (visit leslie)
-York
-Bath
-Straford upon avon
(3 out of 4 i have been there once, but that was so rush... and i lost all my photos during that lit trip coz my stupid teacher... complained my cam loud ... so sad case... anway so i told myself if will ever go to the UK again i will and I WILL take those pics again... )
=Wales=
-Swansea (visit yuen ling)
=Northern Ireland=
(have no idea yet actually, should consult my classmate Chris)
=Ireland=
-Dublin
=Western Europe=
-Prague (visit Melissa!)
-Italy (i love their food sooo much)
-Spain (visit Ramiro! My fellow biomedic!)
-Greece (i heard that its just one beautiful scenic place... oh man~)
-Rome (i love their history, as much as shakespear, wordworths of england & Tsar of Former Sovient union)
-Amsterdam! (I wan to see wildmills)
-Germany (Food & Beer!)
-France (honestly, not much feeling for it yet.. its just famous and near to uk - v stupid if i dun go)
-Vennia (i missed the choir trip =( )
Hmh any place i misshed? can tell me i will try to plan and add up everything... coz have to start planning for next year to get ultra cheap tix =D
::LATEST PLAN::
since all my classmates here bunksie me, (wad to say... different culture wor) the following is wad i can do:
-Go out on the street of Glasgow & Edinburgh for their chirstmas market
-Stay home for christmas (erh have to contact some neighbour for dinner... if not really pathetic)
-Newyear, apparently got someone organising a trip to North Ayrshire! which i wanted to go down south of glasgow anyway... the price is cheap for 3 days- 50 pounds for transports, food and accom! 3 nites some more... contemplating to go or not... go liao sure screw exam, dun go ,.... a bit sian... dunno lah... *headache*
Rest for my cold from London first... just back for 1 day from that 7 days london trip...
Here, I wan to thanks all my friends and people to I have meet in london thru this 7 days. Thankyou for hosting me and bring me around, bring me for dinner and having all the fun that i would not have if i din have you guys! Great fun and I am really grateful to have you. If anyone come up to glasgow, find me yea =)
signing off here =)
Van
In the name of education, i travel.
Let me be your eyes to see the world, bringing u through a life time of wildest imaginations.
1:34 AM