Life is Full of choices, but there is only that much you can handle.

Friday, January 16, 2009

Hiax, it is kinda sad when i see some photos of my graduation and when the most impt moment when i am in the hall and on stage. Pictures taken by my dad shook big time till u can't even see wad the hell it is!!!!!! ARGH! really frustrating when it was the first time I graduated and all I get is some blurry lousy shots! REally, very disappointing and honestly, it was not exactly as enjoyable as I would have imagined. At least not when I have to keep the "person" in check and to make sure they were not too embarrassing. ARGH. to think of it just gave me more steam. Never had any good memory when he was around anyway.

That's precisely when We need a better compact camera and a better skilled photographer! Hiax, it was so sad that Mr. Goh Tuan cannot make it, and so was his camera, which was already loaned to Francis.

Guess next year I would have my graduation in Singapore, so that I can save so money and get better pics with better landscapes and hopefully to borrow the grown for a longer period of time to make the most out of it. That would be the last time with graduation grown and the stole. I would really love to get some good shots with Stamford Raffles. lol. Kinda sad that I have 1/2 decided not to go on in academic for a wizard hat... but who knows...

Well, for those haven't graduate yet, let me tell u, graduation day, its like wedding day (a milder version i guess... coz u dun nid THAT much of preparation). U try to sleep early the day before, worrying if everything will goes well. Sleep v little and wake ultra early to put on ur make up and ur suits, be at the venue early - okey going into hall with heaps of people is different... i dun suppose u get thousands of people signing different marriage cert at the same time do you... unless that's like a group thing or wadever. lol. So we were briefed in elder hall and proceeded to the Main hall. Parents and friends seated, with music played from skilled musicians (music students of the uni) and there come strolling in the Professors and Chancellor of the university (yea not the bride. lol). When they are seated, someone gave a speech, and there goes the award giving ceremony.

One by one we followed on stage and when our names called. That was the moment, and excitement was felt and you walked proudly up the stage, shook hand with the chancellor and smiled at the camera, collected the parchment - And Time's up! Your one minute of frame was gone before you knew it. That one long minute which represented your three years of hard work. Something that is precious, that belongs to you. For the very first time where everyone present within the hall acknowledge your achievement. Something very memorable.

So people ask how u feel after the ceremony, being a graduate... At that moment, or rather now, i still feel "like that lo". But there is something different.

Only as time goes by, when i have to return to aus for honours, then i realise, i have no more lectures to go for, and my life as a undergraduate ends. Tragically, because there is simply nothing very exciting happened besides exchange. abit disappointing, because i din seems to have achieve lot in life. There is just so much discontent. may be it's just me being pessimistic, looking at the future that is not quite bright especially in time like this. Hearing bee's friends insight in Singapore's life science job and my family friend advice, it just seems that getting a job in Biomedical industry is abit low pay and hard compared to overseas... no wonder my friends tell me to stay on and work for a year or 2....

But I have my reasons, yet, that sole reason is not going to be helpful, if CIA is not going to give me another year(s) of PR in Singapore. Seriously. is this wrong time or bad luck. there are just so many obstacle and ordeal that keep coming forth. I just want to have a good life with a gd pay job after I finish my study and start working for my future and happiness. man. Life is really tough....

1:51 AM