Life is Full of choices, but there is only that much you can handle.

Friday, February 02, 2007

doesn't seems to be a good year to me. It's gona be rough, i got pushed onto the road by this old man on skate on the very first day of this year. *my palm still pain even til now* the impact was really great. I actually flown about 30 cm off where i was (PS> I was on skate too, but stationary.) On the same day after class cycling to changyi, i was chawta and lost my watch on the way home - my 10 years old watch, with me since my primary 6th birthday. Gone.

Next up, I felt wasted at home, being the good doggie waiting for someone to play with when they are free. Like who will be free rite. Just wasted and i dun like the feeling of being a taxi. That's really not good coz i can't drive and i have NO drive.

So finally after so desperate request to friends about jobs, phy lent a helping hand; introduced me to a bookshop for part time work. It is sort of better. somehow, I felt that at least i am learning and won't be nagged at by my mom that i am doing nothing - besides when i am doing housechorse she shuts... else... if i am jus waiting to go out... u know...

Then, it was just two days ago, someone just broke one of my favour bottle of stars. interestingly, there were only 2 pieces of broken glass left on the table, the stars and the rest of the pieces where all gone. Frankly speaking, there could only be one person that is responsible to it, either my mom or my brother. But none said they knew about it, worst, most hated anwser "I don't know!" This is full of crap man.

And now... guess wad... i have just been thinking. Life is a bit boring. People are getting lazy to plan activities and of coz who would want to be the leader rite? The prefect picture seems to lose its colour. Is it me who are not understanding enough? or not giving enough effort? But what about ME? sometimes i do wonder if i am on the right track, board the right ship. i din ask for much, coz i expect things to be done. Come on, we are not kids anymore. Use ur Brain.

Well, all these sounded like coming out from a drama queen? I am no drama queen but i don't deny that i might have been whining too much? or Have i beeen victimising myself? I do get over things, but first i need to voice them out. Coz i am NOT happy. When it's all flushed out, it would be like a clear sky... Sadly, not in Singapore.

Labels: The heartbroken day

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