Life is Full of choices, but there is only that much you can handle.

Sunday, December 30, 2007

Half of the cause was obviously due to stress. But this morning i realised that there is another reason for this sleeplessness. Well, let me tell u about my dream - guess it only lasted like 5 mins.. but i woke me up from my bed... after trying so hard to sleep last nite...

I managed to really relax for last nite i guess, coz i feel better then previous day. I was desperate to hear him last nite. coz i know i miss him soooo much that i can't sleep. i read thru notes and letters, photos that bring me back to the past. Then hugged bluie, and finally found myself in this dream:

i remember trying to call you and somehow it work. u picked up the phone and spoke to me. so i asked, 'are u gaming?' 'yea, but then when u call the internet went off...' there was silence coz i remember i was sleepy in my dreamt and being blurred like when u are really sleepy. (weird huh.. i am sleeping but then i can feel like being v sleepy when i am sleeping.. =x *dotz* i was like, hm, since i managed to hear u, i interrupted your game and i din have much to say, so i just end this call. all seems v simple, BUT then i dunno somewhere along the way he said this to me, 'go and find someone better' (hm... before bfast i still remember so clear that it shock me and i can't sleep, but after bfast i forgot -.-)

Then, tis is absurd... i vaguely remember that i was somewhere on a ship, saw friends from AU, and we were talking about coursework / exam? THEN..... _._ i dreamt of 1 character from bleach (the pink hair girl) and the main character from D'grey man, both in shimigami clothes, and trying to 'rescue' their friend - a girl, who dun wan to go back... blocked by the former captain... (PS> i din watch anime for long time le...)

Wad these means? it means I really really mish him, i am stress about exam, and i am totally messed up. -.-" that girl who do not wish to return, could be my subconscious... myself.

4:54 PM