Life is Full of choices, but there is only that much you can handle.

Saturday, December 29, 2007

is a happy ending. so far. i am really happy and cheer up reading it. There is love.

At the same time i was reminded that... how pathetic i am for this year's christmas. yea.. once in a life time quietest christmas nite ever, where i sulked and he rotted with friend around him. Christmas was not meant to be like that yea? we did had a good time last year in hk.... i did put in effort to make him 'feel' for christmas... but i guess like bear say: we guys can't do things like having u in his arm.

He is just. SIAN. a big word already stamped on his forehead.

me too! just that i din put a face - coz there was no one around! so my strings of pearls fell.

Jason (friend from GUSS) told me that i am not alone, coz He who is above is always there and know everything. [one gd friend to have - wad he say did comfort me abit]

but i like to self indulge...

Ramiro and a few more talked to me on Christmas nite as well. Hope his father is okey.
Rachael was sick. well its the weather.

A few more, like James? and Star i think... oh well i did really sound pathetic and sad on my nic. Coz its just the time that u should tell the world u are not happy.

Other than typing on the com chatting with the aboves... The only people that i did open my mouth to was my family. I was brighten up for a while... but its depressing not to hear from you. Its just depressing to know that we are both sianned and sad but no one bothers to do sth. So i was the one who turned the table.

as usual.

And i start to think. And i start to blog. Coz i have no one to tok to.

Thinking that it was not as bad when i was in adelaide. and the difference could be due to time, which was overcame. but wad more was that we din webcam for 3+ months.

I guess i am fading. fading as sunshine and rain. He felt it was like 3 different persons that he was talking to when he see my pic, chat on msn and voice chat on yahoo. The touch is lost.
bad connection.

oh well, i might be overemphazing things again am i? it's really not that bad... really....

At least, i know when i see the watch. Must sth be done then!?

8:50 AM